i love you & miss you <3

2010-10-24T12:19:00.002+08:00

Won't be updating this blog so often.

Changed website -> yingyin-gnny.blospot.com

Bye.

2010-10-14T21:16:00.002+08:00

So fast tmr is FRIDAY, which means baby booking out. Super miss him. And tmr he coming over my house to stay over. *Happy girl.

Yesterday met shiqi for lunch at lot one. Ate tom yum mee at 302. Super long never eat alr. But in the end can't eat finish cause too much. Then went lot one walk walk and sat outside mac. Chit chat with shiqi while waiting for ignatius. After that he reached alr, went subway eat. Chattttttttt. Then took lrt home. Reached home, did nothing. Then talked on the phone with baby awhile then he went to sleep cause tired. Went to buy mac for supper. Ate, rest awhile then sleep.

Woke up around 10plus. Watched tv and ignatius and shiqi reached my house around 12plus. Started mj. HAHA, mj again! Starting lose $15 to ignatius, but luckily i win back $15 in the last plot. Which means bo lai! Lols. Then some sorts of quarrel with baby. Mood changed. Hais. I also don't know him lahh. Just because i took longer time to reply him then he dulan. Hais. Ended mj around 8plus then they went home. Chat on the phone with noelle. And meeting her later.
:(((((((((((((

Might be chating on the phone with baby to SETTLE. :(

I'm tired. Super tired..

2010-10-13T13:25:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was a super fun day with shiqi and ignatius. They came my house in the afternoon and kill my bored-ness! Hahahaha. Thanks. Shiqi suggested to play mahjong. So we played. I don't know why i'm damn super high and crazy. Keep making myself laughing all the way. Haha. Played till 9plus then they left. I lose $80 chips to ignatius. Luckily never played money, or else i die! Hahaha. Then continued mahjong with noelle and brother. Played till half way, brother want go out. Then stopped mj. Went in room, use lappy. Noelle overnight my house. Use lappy awhile, fell asleep at 2plus.

Haha, and we going to play mahjong again tmr at my house. :) Going to have fun with them.

Later going to meet shiqi at lot one to eat my breakfast/lunch/dinner. Haha.
Update later! :D

Baby, three more days to see you. :D Miss you very much nehs! Am soooooo excited to see you! :D

2010-10-11T22:00:00.004+08:00

Time to update bloggggggggg :)

Mother went back malaysia for a week already. Time passed so fast. But still must wait for 2 - 3 weeks then she will come back. Sad :( Hope mother come back before baby's birthday so i can celebrate with baby. And baby might be opening bbq/chalet on the 5nov which i guess my grandma will be celebrating her birthday too. Ohmygosh! Same date sia. But most likely, i will accompany baby on that day if he really open bba/chalet. *(Baby, see. I chose you lea. Means you're important. Such a good girlfriend hor? Haha) Alright, spent my weekend with baby and co. :)

Friday, went to lot one to find shiqi and ignatius. Slack. Then noelle came find me. After that shimin and zx came too. Slack till 2plus. Took cab home. Sent shimin home first then went to petir. Chit chat with them then walked to noelle's house. Waited for her to prepare then cab over to my house. Played mj with brother and noelle until morning 7plus.

Saturday, slept till 1plus. Brother went out. Rot at home and do housework all the way until 7plus, baby came over my house. Watched tv and shiqi, ignatius and jack came over my house too. Played mj. Lose to zj :( Then shimin and zx came after that. Laykoon, aloy came too. Baby's face like not happy when lk they all came. Hais, don't know how to explain. Fucking long story. Around 3plus, ended mj. They went to eat while baby overnight at my house. Chit chat with baby until 4plus to 5 then sleep.

Sunday, woke up at 6plus in the morning. Brother woke me up. Super tired. Only slept for one hours plus. Then went to prepare and headed meiling jie house. Didn't put make up because don't feel like putting plus very troublesome. Prepare some stuff. Then the groom reached and we started playing with groom and his brothers. HAHA. Played till very funny. All of us were laughing. And veron was the mastermind of everything. After that, groom went in the room to fetch his bride. Took pictures then headed to groom's house. Took pictures and had tea ceremony. After everything, rest awhile and headed back to bride's house for tea ceremony. Slack there awhile, then edwin sent me home. Reached home, used lappy and slept for half an hour. Woke up, prepared and off to wedding dinner at sembawang. Enjoyed myself with cousins at wedding dinner. All of them super high. And we made the atmosphere super high. :) Then took mer's father car home. Super tired. It's sunday! Baby book in already. Sad that can't accompany baby. Anyway, baby told me something which i think it's made sense. Baby said : 'Dont sad la..It doesnt matter how long we see each other..As long as each other is in our mind..Not meeting up also ok de..' Make sense. :)

Bride with her bride's sister:)

Weining, primary school friend! :)

Today, woke up at 11plus. Met shiqi at petir around 1plus. Then went up to zx's house and waited for him then headed down to bugis. Find shimin while waiting for ignatius to come. Then went to eat LJS. Then went to walk walk at bugis street with shiqi. Nothing caught my eye, same goes to shiqi. Then waited for noelle to come. Went bugis junction walked walked. Noelle came and went back to bugis street. Walked pass alot of guy's shirt shop. Thought of buying for baby for his birthday present but it's too early to buy. HAHA. Then walked round and round. In the end, i brought flats and two jumpers. Me and shiqi brought the sane jumper too. Haha, we plan not to tell our bf that we had the same jumper. Next time we went out, me and shiqi will wear it and confirm they will be shock and ask why we brought the same jumper. HAHA, that's lame. :)
Then went to seven find zx. Talked awhile then went to wait for bus. While waiting, took some pictures. Saw shamus and he said i changed. Last time wear spect, nerd nerd de. Now like ahlian -.- he then like ahbeng lor! Haha. Then ignatius want sleep alr so he decided to take cab and send us home. So good. Thanks anyway :) Reach home, use lappy.

Noelle Second baby! :)

Shiqi sister! :)

Second baby, me and sister! Lack of Shimin. *See, shimin. I never forgot you hor. Don't said i boxim ah! HAHA.

Just now talked to baby on the phone. It's had been so long since we chatted on the phone. He kept disturbing me. Wth. Just want to hear my voice when i'm angry only then kept disturb me. -.- Zzz. Chatted about half an hour then hang because he want to sleep.

Alright, that's it. Kind of lazy le. Haha. :)

2010-10-08T16:23:00.002+08:00

It's friday and baby booking out soon. But not fetching him :( Anyway, only meet him later at midnight because he is going out with his squad mates to drink. Sian sia. Super miss him lor :( Hope he know that i'm waiting for him at home when he's drinking with his friends.

Noelle came over my house to overnight yesterday. She helped me to re-paint my nails and played with my hair due to bored-ness. Haha. Watched tv until 3plus and fell asleep. Superrrrrrr tired. Then woke up around 11plus today and went down to fajar and had our breakfast/lunch. Went back my house and slack all the way. And i can't believe both of us can fix the door lock. HAHA. Around 4plus, she went work. Boringgggg. I'm alone at home now, waiting for younger brother to come back from school. Update later if i'm bored.

Show you guys the pic of me and my cousin. We did changed :)

Before!

After!

See, the difference?

2010-10-06T20:54:00.003+08:00

Fyi, this post is emo.

If not interested in reading, then fuck off.

Sorry and thanks.

Mood isn't good this few days. Had been emo-ing.

Baby text me only when he free. Which is like every morning and evening. And the messages we text is getting lesser and lesser. Today i guess we text less than 5? I really don't know what happened. Why suddenly we text so little? I understand that he's busy and also tired. Sighs. Sometimes, i thought of letting go this r/s and moving on but i still can't bear to leave him. I know if i give up, the person will regret, sad and cry is not him, is me. And baby will get angry if he saw this post. Because he don't like me to say and think about this stuff. Sighs. Sorry baby. Rest assure, i won't leave you because we ain't easy to be together and there's no any reason for me to let you go again. Promise me, you won't leave me too, ok?

Sometimes, i'm envy those girls out there when their boyfriend haven't go in ns or had already finished their ns because they can spent more times together. As for me, i had to spend my 4days and 1 half day alone without boyfriend. Somemore, i'm not even studying or working now. It damn fucking bored. I swear. How i wished, 2years will pass quickly. So that i could spend more time with baby. Speaking of that, i don't even know me and him will last anot. Sigh.

Thinking of the past, we had been through the obstacles and difficulties and it's really ain't easy for us to be together again. I shed lots of tears just cause of him. And yes, he's the first guy i cried so badly. First guy i brought him home and sleep. And he once told me that i'm the first girl he brought home and overnight.

I still remember one day, he told me about him and his ex stuff. Saying what they did all that. I did read his ex's blog and saw all those post about what they did and some pics too. Yes, i felt alittle bit jealous even though that happened like years ago? I admit i'm a sensitive and jealous girl. Even though it's already the past, i still will think of it. I kept asking myself, why did his ex could and i could not? Sighs. Whatever it is, she's just baby's ex. Also not my who. Why should i be bother so much? As long as baby love the way i am can already. I don't bother so much about what he and his ex did last time lah.. What matters me now is you, baby! *(ANYWAY, IF YOUR DON'T KNOW WHO I'M TALKING ABOUT THIS POST, PLEASE FUCKING ASK ME FIRST BEFORE MAKING ANY CONCLUSION.)

Anyway, i hope to see boy soon. I super super miss him like hell ... Two more days and he's booking out. Won't be able to fetch him on friday. Sat, can't accompany him the whole day. And sunday, might be able to see him in the afternoon for awhile. See, how pathetic am i? Just want to spend the times when he book out, also difficult. I hope nothing will happened between me and baby's r/s.

Last but not least,

胡至杰,
Please bear this in mind.
When i'm not beside you, behave yourself.
And take good care of yourself.
Don't let me worry about you can?
I love you and super miss you alots.
♥♥♥

2010-10-05T21:47:00.003+08:00

I'm fucking bored. So decided to do quiz again.

1. Shortest relationship?
- One month, i think.

2. Last gift you received?
- Winnie the pooh bear from baby.

3. Ever dropped a cell phone?
- Of course.

4. Last food you ate?
- Mac.

5. Last place u visited?
- Fajar shopping centre.

6. Last laugh?
- Yesterday midnight watching tv with brother and father.

7. What are you listening to now?
- Never listen anything.

8. Where do you live?
- bukit panjang

9. Last wedding you attended?
- Last year ba?

10. Last time you saw your friend?
- Yesterday.

11. Where is your favorite place?
- Anywhere, as long with baby.

12. Can you cook?
- Not really.

13. Last time you cried?
- Friday night.

14. Why?
- Cause ....

15. Hate most about yourself?
- Idk ?

16. Can you sing?
- Not really.

17. Do you drink?
- Sometimes.

18. Pancakes or French toast?
- both.

19. Do you like coffee?
- No.

20. Last person who sends you a text message?
- Jack darling kor.

21. What was the last text message you received?
- 'Good to heat that. :D got any problem try to talk to me or something k? I'm always here xiaomei! :D though i might not reply but i try to get back to u k? *promise* :D ya lo. Just go in.5 weeks alr. :D hahas.

22. Your reply?
- 'Thanks darling kor. I'm glad to have u as my kor. Alright, if i have any problem, sure tell you. Thanks for being there for me! :) anyway, got girlf alr hor? Haha. Last long. Meet up one day ok?'

23. Can you swim?
- no ):

24. Favorite flavor of ice cream?
- Cookies&creams.

25. What time did you wake up this morning?
- 11 plus.

26. What are you doing this week?
- Wed and thurs might be rotting at home. Fri, maybe baby coming over my house and stay over. Sat, maybe baby coming over my house again and play mj too. Sun, weilin kor wedding.

27. Are you smiling?
- no.

28. Do you miss someone right now?
- YES! SUPER MISS!

29. Do you have a crush?
- No.

30. Do you have a sister?
- Ya.

31. Who is your closest cousin’s name?
- Anngee.

32.What were you doing 10 minutes ago?
- using comp.

33. if you were a color, what would
you be?
- Er, blue!

34. if you could go anywhere right now, where?
- I want go hongkong! It'll be great if i get the chance to go with baby!

35. Food you're craving for right this minute?
- Er, anything will do.

36. Name a friend who's name starts with the letter "A"?
- Alastair.

38. Radio station you frequently listen to?
- i dont really listen to radio.

39. Where do you usually hang out?
- er , shopping mall .

40. if you were to change careers, what would you want it to be?
- not sure leh.

41. What are you going to do tomorrow?
- Don't know.

42. Favorite day?
- 1 april 2010.

43. Are you easy to get along with?
- depends.

44. What movie do you want to see right now?
- Any movies, as long as watching it with baby.

45. Whose birthday is coming up?
- Noelle and baby's birthday.

46. How many kids do you want?
- depends.

47. Where do you usually watch movies
- Anywhere, as long with baby.

48. Name one lost friend which starts with the letter "K"?
- no one.

49. What thing did you buy just now?
- Forget liao.

50. Do you have any bestfriend that is an opposite sex?
- i guess so.

Alright, super duper miss baby right now. Today we didn't really text alot. Maybe less than ten? Pathetic right? Hais. Maybe he's busy ba.

Update next time. Kind of lazy now.

2010-10-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

Mood isn't good now as my mother went back malaysia just now. And my freedom gone. As usual, need to take care my brother and do housework.

Worst is, i can't accompany and spend time with baby this weekend and also next weekend. Super sad okay? Nobody will understand how i feel right now. I had tolerate it for many years. Sighs. Told boy about this, and he said he will come over my house to accompany me and as well as ask people to come my house for mahjong. So thoughtful of him. *Love you.

Friday, didn't fetched baby when he book out. Super angry with him as he went to play lan. The fact was we didn't quarrel at all. In the end, i still miss him and wanted to see him badly. So headed down to cck to meet up with noelle. Slacked and heart to heart talk with her. Waited for boy to play finish his lan. After that, took cab back to baby's house and overnight.

Saturday, woke up at around 11plus. Baby told me he went jogging. In the end, jog till his friend house and watched them played mahjong. Wtf. No wonder he took so long to come back. While waiting for him, went back to sleep again and woke up around 1plus. Went to bath and headed to town. Wanted to watch movie, but timing doesn't suit. Then went to see people played pool. Baby kept comment others. Super funny la he -.- Then baby asked me to learn to play pool in case in the future he still got me to play with. HAHA. Then i kept saying don't want. Actually, i want to learn to play for the sake of him. I will go learn and give him a surprise. Lols, please don't tell him if anyone of your saw this. Shhhhhh, ok? Then around 6plus, boy sent me to mrt station and he went to take bus back to cck. In mrt, super bored and having stomach cramps. Text with baby. Finally reached pasir ris, then took bus to downtown east. Waited for birthday boy to come out and fetched me as his chalet were very deep inside. Reached his chalet, had chat with cousin and relatives too. Then me, mer and anngee were sitting outside to have heart to heart talk. Talked till 2plus, went back home. Wanted to ton at the chalet with cousin but i wanted to meet baby. In the end, went home. Went to bath and rest awhile to wait for baby to reach petir. Walked to petir and met baby. Overnight at his house again. Super tired. Fell asleep when reached his house. Photo at cousin's chalet
Sunday, woke up around 11plus. Went to bpp mac to meet up with meiling jie to discuss her wedding. Baby accompanied me then he went walked walked at plaza. Reached plaza, talked about her wedding stuff. And her niece was my primary school good friend. She totally change alot sia. Then went to walk while waiting veron to come. Ate subway for breakfast/lunch with veron. Chat till 5plus then went to baby's house. Waited for him to prepare then accompany him to wait for cab then walked home. About to reach home, baby use his friend's phone to call me and telling me he forgot to take his phone and asked me to help him take to his camp. Reached home, went to bath and rest awhile. Took lrt to petir, went up baby's house to take his phone then met noelle at HTA's bustop. Then passed him his phone and we headed back to lot one for kbox. Sang till 2plus, then walked home. Super funny la.

Went bugis with noelle. Took my cheque from zhixian. Chat with him. Like very long never see him even though i did saw him at home lah. Lols. Then went walked walked at bugis. Ate kfc for dinner. Then went back panjang slack. Reached home around 10plus. From today onwards, i'll be the last time YINGYING. Super good girl and stay at home do housework. Fyi, is just for the time being. Once my mother came back from malaysia, you'll see me hanging out late at outside! No mood now.

2010-10-01T17:18:00.003+08:00

It's 5.25 pm now. Baby booking out soon but i'm not fetching him. HAHAHA. Because i don't feel like seeing him. Hehs, just kidding only :) The reason why i never fetch him is because he told me yesterday he would book out late and asked me not to fetch him and at the same time, i have alot of things to do today. So that's the reason... BUT i will still meet him later because i super miss him and i bet he super miss me too. HAHAHA.

Oh ya! My third baby went hong kong this morning. Miss her sia. And she very bad lor. Go hong kong never tell me and somemore i'm last to know sia. Super bad :( But i still love her :) Have fun in your trip!

Met up with mirrah yesterday. Went back cdss to collect N level cert. Then walked to bpp with tina and her gangs. Haha. Super funny. NEO LING SHENG still never changed. So noisy. Then mirrah wait for her bf at petir while we went bpp first. Went to at LJS. Having alot of fun with them. How i wished i still in school... hais. Chat till 5plus. Supposed to go town with mirrah BUT SHE PANGSEHS ME AND WENT HOME WITH HER BOYF. WTF LAH. So went walked walked and went to mac to slack. Ate ice cream with tina. Slacked till 6plus and accompany them to lrt. Met noelle and her friend at interchange then went plaza walked walked. Sent her friend to bustop then went 152 slack. Went back noelle house, waited for her to bath and prepared then walked back to my house. She overnight at my house. :) Watched tv. Paint my nails pink again! Then sleep. Super tired.

Okay, got to go and do my things now! Update next week. BYE! :)

Happy 6 months, My boy! ♥♥♥

Times passed so fast. 一转眼, 6 months already. Super fast can? Haha. Nevertheless, i still love you. Thanks for everything you had done for me. Appreciate it alot. I'm happy la, baby!!! Haha. Really hope that we can last longggggggggggg okay? And i'll be the last girl you ever love in the world. HAHAHAHA. Baby, i love you! ♥

2010-09-30T12:06:00.001+08:00

OH, FML PLEASE! MOTHER GOING BACK MALAYSIA SOON. MIGHT BE TMR AND I HAVEN'T FOUND ANY JOB YET! OMG! FUCKING SAD! CAUSE I NEED TO TAKE CARE MY YOUNGER BROTHER WHICH INCLUDE SAT AND SUN! MEANS I CAN'T SPEND TIMES WITH BABY FOR ABOUT 2 TO 3 WEEKS? DAMN SAD LUH! HOPE I FOUND A JOB BY TODAY! PRAY HARD! :(

2010-09-29T13:08:00.005+08:00

Friendzxzxz! Super miss them alot. :)

Oh my! I only slept for 5hour and i can't sleep already. Don't know why. And my menses is coming. Guess will be abit of moodswing. So guys, becareful ah! *EVIL LAUGHS. Suppose to meet mirrah today but both of us were too tired. Yawns. Guess spending my time at home today. Might be meeting noelle later after her work.

Haha, i love the photo below. It's was taken during sec3 end of year bbq at east coast park.
:)

Tina Tan LiLing.
Never failed to make me laugh like crazy whenever we are together.
Always be there for me when i need.
Listen to all my problems.
Cheer me up whenever i'm sad.
Wipe away my tears when i cried.*(got hor? I remember you did wiped my tears :))
With her around, i will behave like crazy?
I love to see her laugh till she cried. HAHA.
Even we are not in the same school, she's still my friend, good friend.
We'll still in contact no matter what.
Feel free to tell me any of your problems.
Sure be there for you!
:)

Alright. Haha. I think she'll be surprised to see this ba. Anyway, let you guys see a photo of me.
Don't laugh hor!
But i guess your will laugh? HAHA.

Chicken style! Haha.
I don't know why i love doing this.
I think now don't have already.
Haha.
Did your guys notice i look FAT in this photo?!
Omg!
My arms there!
So FAT lahh.
And i love this hair.
BECAUSE i just rebond my hair then it look smooth and soft.
HAHA.
Abit lameeeeeee, i know -.-

Update later :D

Oh yesh, it's wednesday now! :)

2010-09-29T04:26:00.005+08:00

Hey yo, back from mahjong with awesome people. Haha. Alright, lose again. Nevermind, got credit. :) And baby also won't scold me hor? :) Going wake up at 8plus later to fetch brother to school then meeting mirrah around 11plus? Guess will be super tired. :( Anyway, now is 4.30 am and i'm still awake! HAHAHA.

ONE MORE HOUR, BABY GOING WAKE UP ALREADY.
I'M WAITING FOR HIM :)
YAY! HAPPY GIRL! ^^
I don't know why everyday around 5.30 am, i will auto wake up and check if baby did text me when he's awake.
And yeah, he did text everyday. :)
Then after reading his text, i'll go back and sleep.
Hahaha.
Such a good and sweet girlf am i, right? :)
Haha, abit bhb la. Nvm la, who cares?
After receiving his first message of the day, i'll go sleep.
I bet he confirm say me. Cause so late then sleep.
HAHAHA.

Anyway, i had update alot of stuff about baby in my blog. And he didn't get the chance to see it. Hah, so sad :( But he dint even ask me to invite him or let him see. So i don't care. :)

Alright, update later. Going to wait for babyyyyyyyy to wake up. BYEEEEE! ^^

2010-09-28T21:49:00.002+08:00

I'm bored. Saw this quiz on somebody's blog, and feel like doing it. So i copy and paste then do it in my blog. HAHAHA. Am texting with baby now. Mahjong later with ppl after i blog this :)

1.wat is ur name(a full one)
Sim Ying Ying

2.do i like my name?
HAHA, okok la..

3.How long have you like the person you currently like?
5 months or 6 months.

4. Have you kiss anyone before?
Obviously. Haha.

5.Did you cry today?
No.

6.What are you doing in the morning ?
Watching tv.

7.What are you doing an hour ago?
Using lappy. HAHA.

8.What are you currently doing ?
Texting with baby. ♥

9.Who last texted you a message?
Baby. ♥

10.Have you told anyone you love them today?
Not yet, but soon.

11. Do you miss anyone now?
OF COURSE!

12. Any plan for tomorrow?
Going out with mirrahhhh.

13.What was the reason behind the last time you cried?
Relationship.

14.Is there anyone you want to be with now?
I'm already with someone now.

15.Have you kiss anyone with the name starting with 'S'?
I don't know? HAHA.

16. Name someone who made you smile today.
Baby. ♥

17.Name a friend whose name starts with 'Z'.
Zhijie.

18.Which of a friend stay closest to you?
Neo ling sheng.

19.Do you prefer to call or to text?
Call. Its nice to hear the other party's voice.

20.Was yesterday better than today?
Yeah. .

21. Can you live a day without your TV and your phone?
No.

22.Are you mad about anything now?
No.

23.Do you ever think that relationship are worth it ?
Totally.

24. Last person you visited in the hospital.
Nobody, i guess.

25.When is your second and last hug.
On sunday.

26.wat does ur last msg say.
'So sweet..Hao la..I know i been leaving you alone everytime i go play L4D..I try to dont play ok..'
*(HAHA. Guess who is it? Confirm your know who de) ♥

27.how you feel about life?
Life is boring without him. HAHA.

28.Do you hate anyone?
No.

29. Last person you called?
Mother.

30.Who usually send you the most text in a month?
Baby and Noelle. ♥

31.Is your room messy now?
I dont think so. HAHA.

Okay, done with the quiz. Haha. Seriously, he's getting more and more sweet already. See question 26 and you will know why :) Love him ttm! ♥♥♥

Anyway, cheer up, shiqi. Don't sad sad already. Jiayou and goodluck for your retest. And also all the best in your relationship too :) Anything feel free to tell me ok? I can't help much but i can be your listener. Just text me whenever you want, ok? I will be there for you! ♥

I MISS MY SECOND BABY, NOELLE! :(

2010-09-28T13:36:00.002+08:00

I super miss babyboy now! :(
Wish that he's beside me now
and i could hug him tight!:(
♥

2010-09-27T23:24:00.003+08:00

Okay, two words to describe me now - Tired and moody.

Tired because went out with mirrah to orchard, bugis and lot one. Stupid hate raining day. Shop whole day and i got myself a tank top at cotton on together with mirrah! Fucking broke already :( Took some pictures, upload tmr ba. Superrrrrrrrrr tired. Had heart to heart talk with mirrah at lot one, the garden there(?). Talked until 9plus and home sweet home. Mummy brought sushi for me. I guess sleeping soon. Too tired.

Ohya! Some singaporean is damn kiasu(correct spelling?). FUCKING HATE THEM. Today, mirrah and i took mrt back to cck. Okay, i understand that it's peak hour and it'll be crowded. When we reached at certain station, some singaporean just squeeze in and we got pushed. WTF. Luckily i'm skinny and can squeeze the space infront of mirrah. And we reached jurong east mrt, some fucking ppl just can't wait to get off the train, in the end, they slightly pushed me, and DON'T KNOW WHICH IDIOT STEP ON MY SLIPPERS, AND YEAH, MY SLIPPERS CAME OFF! FUCK. WAS DAMN PISSED OFF. Can't they wait? They were so anxious to get off the train and walk quickly to wait for another train. ARGHHHH! :@

Moody - Baby text me, talked about some stuff. I was wondering, am i useless? Why i can't? Anyway, don't get the wrong info here. Baby never said i'm useless lah. Hais. WHY? I really hate myself. Seriously. After baby text me message, i could felt that he's abit sad? I also don't know. Maybe i think too much? Hais, why nowadays i'm so emotional? Wasn't like this the past few weeks.. Hais, :(

2010-09-27T12:03:00.004+08:00

Hey yo! I'm bored. I'm tired but can't sleep. Might be heading to town with mirrah to look for job later. Haha. I only left 3 months(?) to work and earn money so that i can yang baby too. (:

Ohya! I dreamt something bad last night. To me, consider bad. But to your, i don't know lah. I dreamt that baby and i were together but he hug and kiss his ex girlf infront of me! WTF right? When i saw them doing this kind of thingy, i fucking jealous and angry. There's still alot ppl around us but i forgot who. And we were told not to tell his ex girlf about me and baby stuff. So when baby and his ex girlf doing those thingy, i need to bear with it and pretend i never saw anything. After that, i woke up. LUCKILY IS JUST A DREAM! Phew.. I don't know why i'll dreamt of this weird dream. Hais. If baby were to play timer, seriously i don't know what will happen to me and what will i do. BUT WHATEVER IT IS, I TOLD MYSELF, IS JUST A DREAM :)

September gonna end soon. And october will be quite busy for me?

First, 2oct, cousin birthday chalet at pasir ris. Finally can meet up with cousinxzxzx! Haha. Wondering should bring baby go anot.
Second, 10ct, weilin kor get married. Will be bride sister. Woohoo! First time be bride sister. Looking forward to it. And will have a discussion with others to plan everything on next week, i guess. Haha.
Lastly, 16oct, emelda birthday chalet at pasir ris. Don't know whether want go anot. Luckily is fall on a saturday so that i can bring either baby or noelle to go with me. I doubt baby will allow me to go cause he don't like emelda. :( Will see how.

And our 6 months is cominggggggggg too! Happy! Half a year liao lehhhhh. Hope he still remember. (:
And if baby really going to open bbq for his birthday, i guess i will be busy helping him ba?

Alright, will update later at night or tmr! Going out to have fun with bestieeeeeeee. :)

2010-09-27T02:16:00.002+08:00

This picture don't look like me, isn't it?

Alright, it's monday now. Baby had already book in. Sigh, miss him :( Spent too little times with him this weekend. Had been thinking quite alot of stuff this few days. I had been asking myself this two questions. Will me and baby last? Will we break someday? Sigh. We haven't even together for half a year yet i'm here thinking about this stupid questions. ENOUGH, SYY! STOP THINKING ABOUT THIS QUESTIONS. ALL I KNOW IS THINK ABOUT HIM AND OUR FUTURE. WHETHER ME AND HIM WILL LAST/BREAK, I DON'T WANT TO CARE. ALL I REALLY CARES NOW IS TO CHERISH THE TIME ME AND HIM SPENT TOGETHER. EVEN IF WE'LL TO BREAK UP ONE DAY, AT LEAST WE DID HAD A WONDERFUL MEMORIES TOGETHER. Alright, stop my emo-ing.

Friday, super dulan with baby just because he played lan. Arghhhhhh! I know once awhile play is okay but i super don't like it when he last minute said wanna play lan. That's why i super angry with him and went home first. :@ FUCK YOU, ORZHIJIE! *Fyi, i scold him vulgarities because i love him. :) ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Saturday, went sak's house with tina, ls and isaac for raya visiting. Haha. Happy to see tina because its been so long since we last met! ♥ Chit chat with them and went to eat. Around 1plus, went home. Bathed and prepared. Then weilin korkor came fetched me and off we headed to botanic garden for their wedding photo. Caisan jie and felix kor were there. And i became their assistance! :) Took super lots photo and it's nice! Then around 6plus, left botanic garden and headed to sentosa for wedding photo. Went to palawan beach. The scenery was super nice. Cause maybe was sunset ba? Haha. Imagine sitting on the beach with your boyfriend and watch the sunset? Haha, so romantic la. *(how i wish i could but i guess he no time de la) Then went to hotel and wanted to take some pictures, but the manager said can't so we were deciding where to go and take. In the end, they went caisan jie's house and take formal. I dint went as i meeting baby at bugis. So they sent me to bugis and walked up to seven to find baby. The event was kinda bored and lame ba? So baby and jack decided to go to the coffeeshop and drink. Chit chat with them. After that, jack went ph then we went back to cck and watched movie. The movie we watched was super nice although involve alot of fights. Haha. I forgot what the tittle but i remember got something 'chen zhen'. Nice show, so go catch it! :D Saw oscar when on the way to cinema. And baby asked me one question. How come i know alot of guys ah? Before i could answer him, another guy friend called me. I turned behind and its ian! -.- Then i replied back to baby saying oscar is lingsheng's cousin. And ian is alas's friend. Hahahaha. I think he jealous that i knew alot of guys. *baby, don't jealous la! You know my heart only got you. ♥ HAHAHA. Abit bhb sia. -.- After movie, lrt back to baby's house. Both his parents wasn't asleep yet. Went to change then sleep. Too tiredddddddd.

Surprised that i woke up early today. -.- Accompany baby to withdraw money. On the way there, we were talking about bbq. Maybe he will want to open for his bbq ba. HAHAHA. Oh-ya! I'm shocked when baby said this to me. Cause i was asking him to open bbq for his birthday then he said ' if you happy then i ok de la.' HAHAHAH. Means he open the bbq cause of me, is it? Haha. So gooddddd lah he. SUPER LOVE HIM ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ Then went back to his house. Use computer and ate porridge for breakfast/lunch. Rot at his house and soon, i fell asleep again because he concentrating his MAPLE and zx were watching some show which i felt bored. Slept till 5plus, shimin came. Haha. I was awake. Baby came inside the room, and we chatted again. Then he went to prepare, and left his house. Took lrt home. Met noelle around 8plus and went walked at pasar malam. Quite bored. Then went backed to 116(my old house) downstairs to slack. Super long never saw noelle already. SUPER MISS HER OK? ♥ Chat till 11plus and went home. Use lappy and watched tv. Brother called, went down to buy mac and eat. Will be sleeping soon. Am so tireddddddddddddddddddddddd.

Mother will be going malaysia soon. I scared this weekend, i can't spend with baby as i need to takecare my younger brother. Hais. Soooooooooooooooooo i got a plan! :D I intend to find job before wed, and going to tell mummy i can't takecare brother so she have no choice to bring my brother go. HAHAHA. Like that i'll have time with baby! This plan good hor? :D

Babyboy, i miss you and also love die you! ♥♥♥

2010-09-24T02:00:00.000+08:00

Alright, wanted to update my blog on monday but can't connect to internet. Call the M1 hotline, and their service is totally SUCK TTM! Called so many times, no one answer the call. Got pissed off with it. And decided to went down to M1 shop at imm to settle it.

Last weekend, spent it with baby. Forgot where we go. Haha. STM liao. But on saturday, went town with baby and jack. Went to eat TCC. After eating, went back cck to look for noelle. Wanted to go kbox but one person cost $25? So expensive. So we decide to play L4D2. So shocked that actually i did played with them -.- So waited for Zhixian and shimin to came. Then went to play lan. Played till around 3plus. Went 302 and chit chat. Took cab back to baby's house and overnight. Tireddddd. Sunday, woke up at don't know what time. Had chat with baby. We were talking about how we met each other and blar blar blar. Also chat about his past..... Then watched tv and went home. Dint accompany baby to wait for his bus back to camp as my parents nag at me for mia. HAHA. So i fell asleep until 8plus, i guess. Woke up and watched tv. Then baby called me! Asked me if i could bring the photo to his camp now as he need it the next day. So hang his call and straight went bathed. Left house and met noelle and qr at bp interchange. Took bus there. Reached there, waited for him to come out. OH MY! This was the first time i saw my boyfriend wore police uniform and it look nice/handsome on him! And i can't imagine i had a police boyfriend! Hahaha :) After that, walked to the bustop. And we saw 172 bus! Three of us ran to the bustop like crazy girls. And all the people in the bus saw us ran, and we boarded the bus, they laugh. Imagine how paisehs was it. Hahah. Then went to kbox again. Shimin, zhixian, shiqi and ignatius joined us later. Sang songs and took some pictures. After kbox, walked home. Tio screen by police at shiqi's house downstair. LOLS. Then qr suggested to took cab so me and noelle joined her while zhixian and shimin took the own sweet time to walk back. HAHAHA.

Monday, was sleeping when received a text from baby. Saying that he got medical appointment at 3.10pm at jurong medical centre and asked me if i want accompany him. And i replied yes :) So i went back to sleep and woke up around 1plus. Went to bath then took lrt to petir to meet up with baby. Then went up to his house as he need to take something. Then took cab there. Reached there 15mins earlier. Then went up to level 3 and waited for his turn. So long. And we both end up playing phone game. Then finally was his turn. He went in and the doctor asked him to go level 1 for X-RAY. Lols. Reached there, waited for his turn. Wth, this time was damn longgggggggggg. So we played our phone game again. FINALLY was his turn, he went in and had x-ray. Then he was asked to went back level 3 to see the doctor. So we went and sat outside the room. Was reading somebody's blog and i showed it to baby. Lols. Because i felt that baby should know this. Haha. After everything, we went to jp and walked walked. Brought his stuff at ntuc then went to took bus back to his camp. In bus, listened to song. When reached his camp, he alighted. I don't know why my tears almost roll down my face. Hais. Then reached cck, took lrt home. Noelle called me and asked to play mj with her friend at woodlands so left my house and met her at petir. Took 963 to woodlands. Reached there, waited for her friends. Went to eat then went for mj. Alright, i lose mj. :( Don't know why i'll never win. Sighs. But her friend dint took our money. So good :) But i really had fun with them. HAHA. Then went 163 and eat then went home. Tireddddd.

Tuesday and wednesday, did nothing much. Stayed at home and as usual, texting with baby.

Yesterday, went IMM with mirrah. Finally got to meet up with her. Miss her super much. Chit chat with her all the way. Haha. Then went to settle my M1 thingy. Took damn longggggg. After that, ate mac for dinner :) Walked around IMM then went daiso! Haha. That's when both of us get crazy and highhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Took pictures. (already upload in fb) Hahaha. Then took mrt back to cck. Went pasar malam and GUESS WHAT? I SAW WINNIE THE POOH EARPIECE. I HAD BEEN LOOKING FOR IT AND YEAH, I BROUGHT IT EVEN THOUGH IT'S QUITE CHEAPPPPPP! HAHAHAHAH! I was like keep telling mirrah that i finally got it and i guess he get irritated by me? hahhaa, who cares? :) Then went to eat yami yogurt and went home. Tiredddddd.

Wednesday night, i sent message to baby. Saying this 'Baby, i felt that i'm not worth your love. And also felt that i'm not a good girlfriend. Hais. But no matter what, i still love you. Nothing''s gonna change my love for you, daddy. Goodnight.' The next day he replied ' Morning baby..I wake up le..Sorry about last night coz i fall aslp..Don't think so much ok..I still love you..' Seriously, i really don't know why i'll sent him that's message. But whatever is it, i love him wholeheartedly.

Oh yeahhhhhhhh. A few more hours, baby gonna book out already. Finally can see him. Happy! :)

2010-09-17T01:09:00.002+08:00

Baby said when i tied my hair, more chio. Also, baby's mother said i wore spect more pretty. So in the end, i tied my hair and wore spect to webcam. Haha. That's how i look like. But i prefer to let go my hair and wore contact lens go out. HAHA.

Three days dint went out. Such a good girl. *Happy. Actually also very lazy to go out la. No place to go also. Tmr going mirrah's house with noelle for raya visiting. Haha. And also, chit chat with mirrah. Super miss her!

Yay! Baby's booking out tmr. Finally can see him already. *Happy girl. But after he book out, we have nowhere to go :( So might staying at his house all the way ba? Hahaha.

Update next week! :)

2010-09-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

Being a good girl for two days. Never went out. Kind of lazy. Woke up every morning, feel like vomiting. Don't know what the hell is wrong with me. Baby asked me go see doctor, but i insist no. Because i don't want waste money.

Did nothing today. Noelle came to find me at fajar. Went downstairs to play candles with her, sister and mummy. Father came after that. He asked noelle some question. All i could said, my father ain't stupid. He knows what i'm doing outside. -.-

This coming friday, going to mirrah's house first then might be meeting emelda at cck. So that i can fetch OZJ at cck when he book out. Am going to stay over at OZJ's house on friday. And i guess saturday too?

Boy don't like it when i slept late everyday. So i must try to sleep early and wake up early for the sake of him. :)

2010-09-15T10:17:00.002+08:00

Ok, my blog is private now. Only my babies can read :D Will unprivate it when i feel like it. :)

Alright, is 10.30am now. Suppose to be in my lala land but don't know why can't sleep already. Somemore yesterday i slept around 4plus in the morning. -.- Feel like vomiting.

Yesterday being a good girl. Stayed at home the whole day. Watched tv, eat and texting with baby. Shared with your what we chat :)

Me: She also got bf liao.
Baby: Her problems la..Lolx.
Me: relax la. I'm just saying only what. Haha.
Baby: I also dont care.. Now i got you and thats what i care..
Me: So sweet. ^^
Baby: Of coz..If not you also wont fall for me so deep..
Me: Ya lor. I think i love you more than you love me.
Baby: At least i care more than you care about me.
Me: Ya. Ok la. Baby, 我爱你. 谢谢你 did everything for me. 我很高兴我有你在我的 side. 你是我这一生最爱的男人也是我的 baby forever. :))))))))))))))))
Baby: I happy to have you too..Really love you more and more each day..

Haha, i'm happy to hear that :) Then we continued chatting. At night, had family chat again. Father told me must 自爱. And he don't wish to see me pregnant. I was like, "haha, i won't de la." And yeah, they nagged at me because i dint answer their call whenever they called me. -.- Haha, i also don't care. :) Oh ya, i cut my nails already. It's so short and i REGRETTED! Hope my nails will faster grow :(

Am not feeling well now. Feel like vomiting :( Cough is getting better but the flu still won't go away :(

It's wednesday now. Two more days, baby booking out. YAY! Finally can see him worxzxzx! ^^ Going to fetch him if not later he'll be sad. Hahahaha.

2010-09-14T20:21:00.002+08:00

And yeah. He's my first baby, Or Zhi Jie. ♥
I love him as much as how i love myself. I let him go once, and he came back to me, he's mine forever. I'm not going to let him go anymore. Cause i lost him once and the feelings seriously sucks ttm. ♥

I love him because he's the first guy whom made me fall in love with a guy so deep.
I love him because he's the first guy whom made me cried alot of times.
I love him because he's treated me very good.
I love him because he care and concern about me.
I love him because he let me felt secure when with him.
I love him because he's the first guy i willing to do/change everything just for him.
He never failed to make me laugh everytime.
He's will always be there for me when i feeling down, listen to my problems. ♥

Baby, i am really very happy that i got you back. It's ain't easy to be together again. We had been together for 5 months 13 days which include the break and patch. But nevertheless, i still love you as before. Sometimes you would made me angry you, but your cute and silly face made me laugh all the time. I've no idea why i won't angry you. Maybe because you're too cute? :) Now you're still serving ns. I know 2 years is very long. But i promised i will wait for you. Even though we could only spent times on friday, saturday and sunday but i know our heart is strong, right? :) After you went in ns, you changed. Changed to a better guy and mature too. Last time you don't treat me well but now it's totally different. You treated me so well than before. I'm happy, seriously. Still remember the very first time when we were together, what did you told me? You said you would cherish me. Well, cherish me ok? And of course, i'll cherish you too :) You ah, must take good care of yourself when i'm not around with you ok? Don't make me worry for you. And thanks for everything you did for me. Really appreciate it. Still remember you bought slippers for me when you knew that my legs hurt? When i knew you bought slippers for me, i'm damn touched. I can't imgaine you did that. Thanks baby♥ And thanks for tolerating my attitude and also my sensitive sense(?). I know we haven't even been together for half a year but you are very important to me. I don't bear to lose you eh. Hope that we will last longggggg okay? I don't care about anything, what i cares the most now is you, our future. You'll be the last guy i ever loved in the world.

胡至杰, 我爱你.♥

Love,
Your girlfriend ♥♥♥

2010-09-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

Hello!
Another weekend had past. Spent it with ♥. It's awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee weekend.

Thursday, wanted to fetch Zhijie when he book out but i overslept. Sorry :( Met him at his house and headed to cck. Slacked around 12plus, took cab back to panjang to meet up with Zx, shimin and ck. Chit chat at 103 then went back his house. Watched tv and soon i fall asleep. In the end, he asked me to go in his room and slept. I wasn't tired so does he. So we chat till 6plus in the morning and slept.

Friday, woke up around in the afternoon, not sure what time. Haha, then he accompanied me to go home first. Headed to keat hong for sushi. In the end, the staff told us 6pm then have buffet. So we walked to lot one. Reached lot, walked around and see what we want to eat. Nothing caught our eyes except for SUSHI. We went to ask the staff if got buffet, a 'no' to our question. Sad. So we decided to go town and eat sushi at cineleisure. Took bus there. Reached there, went up to the sushi, in the end, the staff told us that their buffet start at 12-5pm. Wtf, zhijie got abit dulan. Then we walked around cineleisure but still nothing caught our eyes. And we headed down to bugis for STEAMBOAT. Reached bugis, i remember there's one sushi outlet in bugis junction. So we went to try our luck, in the end, no buffet. Hais, sad :( So we went to eat steamboat. Ate till around 9plus. Thought of watching movie but in the end dint watched. Went iluma to look for zx. Luckily roy dint work today so we could went in seven and slacked. Slacked till 1plus then took cab back to panjang. Reach panjang, went 163 to slack. After that, went over to zhijie's house to overnight. Tired day.

Saturday, woke up around 1plus. Ate porridge for breakfast/lunch. After eating, went back to sleep again. Tired. Then around 6plus, headed home while zhijie went cck. Reached home, use lappy then fall asleep. Around 9plus, woke up. Went to prepare and left my house. Headed cck to meet noelle for dinner. Ate mac for dinner. HAPPY MEAL! :) Chit chat with noelle. Then barry and rst came down to look for us first. Then zhijie and jack too. Then went up to arcade. Slack awhile at cck. Took cab back. Reached home, text with noelle and zhijie. Fell asleep after that. Tired..

Sunday, woke up around 1plus. Went to bath and prepare, left house. Met zhijie at petir. Headed to westmall for movie, vampire suck. Reached there, was late abit. But managed to get the ticket. The movie kinda lame and funny. -.- After movie, went to buy thing as he need it in his camp. Took bus back to bpp. Do his thingy then went back to his house. Waited for him to do finish his thingy and headed lot one with him, noelle, zx and shimin. Then walked around lot one. Accompanied him to wait for bus. Then four of us headed to 302 for dinner. Wanted to play lan but its closing so KBOX! :) Went to sing till 2pm. Took alot of pictures. Shall upload now :)

Second baby & me ♥

Me and Third baby! ♥

Noelle, Me and Shimin! ♥

I got no idea why my eyes look so small in this pics.
Goodfriend, Me and Sister! ♥

That's all. Will introduce my first baby soon! :) ♥♥♥

2010-09-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

Slacking time with dearest scb!

I love this shirt alot! 72!

The food we eat for our dinner (:

Stay at home the whole day. Use laptop. Met noelle at around 10plus for dinner. Slack around at petir area. And noelle took one pic of me. Damn funny lor! NOELLE NG, BETTER DON'T UPLOAD HOR. AND DON'T GIVE PPL SEE HOR. I WILL ANGRY DE, OKAY? Hahah. And we kept laughing. Homed after that. :)

Oh yes! Tmr is thursday! Can see somebody alr. Miss that person very much! :))))))))))

Alright, got to go. Update later if i haven't sleep or tmr :)

2010-09-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

Pink winnie the pooh!♥ It's the first pooh bear i had, which the colour is pink.
I love it very much!♥♥♥♥♥ :)

Having cough right now! Keep coughing non-stop especially during night time. Arghhh. So irritating :(( Alright, another weekend had passed. Spent it with zj and co.

Friday, went town with noelle. Shopping timeeeeeeeeeeeee! :) Not sure spent how much on that day. Hahaha. Noelle and i brought a shoes. :) After that, went bugis. Had sushi for lunch/dinner. Ate till full. :) Then went walk around bugis. Brought bag, shirt, short. Then went to work at cdk as they need ppl. Work together with shimin :) Wore the new shoes i brought and it's hurt :( Luckily not really alot ppl, if not my legs going pain like hell. Asked zj to bring plasters for me. And yeah, he really did. Thanks :) He came to find us and waited for us to end work. Hehs. Then noelle came to find us. Waited for us to off work too. Around 11plus, me and shimin off work first. Went to find zj and noelle. Then ignatius and shiqi came. After that, we sent noelle to bugis mrt there. Chit chat all the way. And shocked to hear something! Seriously, i'm touched. I can't imagine you will do this to me. Oh my god! Thanks anyway. After that, me, shimin and shiqi sat at bugis there to talk. Then zj and ignatius came find us. Walked back to iluma and went up to bounce while waiting for zx to end work. After everything, went to eat at bugis. Then zj, me, shiqi and ignatius walked to cineleisure while zx and shimin took cab. Lols. Went up straight to the cinema. We wasn't late for the movie. Lols. Ohya, anyway, we watched haunted changi! The movie not really nice to watch. Waste our money to watch. Then took bus back to panjang to eat mac. Then went back house to sleep. Tireddddd.

Saturday, woke up around 2plus. Tired. And i vomited. Don't know why. Eat first then bathed. Went plaza sing with zj and jack. Walked around then went iluma find zx and shimin. I'm tired and also can't so late go home so i headed back to pajang to meet noelle for dinner. Not in good mood. That's how i wasted my saturday. Then noelle came my house to sleep as we going do hair tmr at fajar. Text with zj awhile then fall asleep. Moodless.

Sunday, woke up at around 1plus. Too tired. Then went to do our hair. Finished at around 3plus. Went back my house to prepare then went to petir meet zj. Walked to plaza to have our breakfast/lunch. Eat don't know what restaurant at bpp. The food still okay. Eat till very full but zj still complaint hungry. -.- wth, keep eating non-stop sia. Then walked back to his house as he need to prepare to go back camp while noelle went home first. Watched tv and around 6plus, left his house. Met noelle at petir then went to take bus and headed cck. Zj followed us to alight because he said will reach his camp early -.- then went up to kbox to book appointment first. then accompany zj to wait for his bus. after that, went lot one walked walked. Met shimin then went to smoking area and had girls talk ;) Took some pics, waiting for shimin to upload :) Then went to kbox. Zx, qr and mickey joined us. Sing till 12plus, me and noelle went home first. Too tired.

Monday, woke up around 3plus, if i'm not wrong. Went to eat, bath and watched tv. Left house at around 4plus. Took bus and went to work. Tired. Reach there, went to work. Quite alot of ppl. And end work at around 11plus due to the customers. Then waited for zx to off work. Took cab back to panjang to meet noelle for late dinner. After eating, slack awhile then walked home. Chat with noelle on the phone even when i reached home then fall asleep.

Today, woke up at around 12plus. Text with zj :) Wanted to sleep but in the end never. Watched tv all the way as today don't need work. Fall asleep at around 6plus. Too tired. Then continued text with zj. Left my house at 10plus, went petir to meet noelle for dinner. Slack awhile and went back home. Might be sleeping soon. Too tiredddddddddddddddddddd. :/

I really scared! :(

2010-08-30T14:53:00.002+08:00

Friends! :D

Alright, another weekend had passed. And yeah, as usual, spent my weekend with zhijie. Friday, met him at cck for dinner together with his friends. After eating, went back his house to put his stuff. Met shimin and ignatius under his block downstairs. Took bus and headed to bugis to find zhixian. Every week will go there at least one time. Reach there, went seven and find zhixian. Slack there until 1plus. Took cab back panjang. Went 163 to eat and slack. Noelle came to find us. Chit chat and slack till 3plus, all went home. Went to zhijie's house with shimin. Haha. Watched tv and i fell asleep. Tired.

Saturday, kept being woke up by orzhijie! Kept disturbing me. *Angry! Lols, in the end, managed to sleep for don't know how many hours. Woke up at 2pm cause we going town for movie togther with ignatius and shiqi. Shimin joined us too. Waited for him to bath and then went back my house. Then he waited for me to bath and prepared. And ate some food as my mother cooked. Around 4plus, left my house. Walked to bus stop and took bus. In bus, listened to songs. Reached there, went to buy tickets for STEP UP 3! ♥ Then went to walk walk. Saw winnie the pooh bear in the machine? Haha. Zhijie went to 掉 it for me. Happy girl! (: And it's the first time he gave me thing? Haha. Somemore is pink colour sia! Thanks anyway! (: Then went to eat first before movie. After that, went back to cine. Met up with shimin then went to cinema. And the movie started. The movie was damn awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I love the last part! ♥ I don't mind to watch it again(: After movie, headed to bugis to find zhixian first. Slack awhile then went back cck to meet jackie and jack. Slack till 2plus. Then walked back to ten mile lan. All of them played lan while i talking to jovin about some stuff. Then played till 5plus. All stopped playing because i'm tired. Then they went 103 to eat while i went home. Tiredddddddd. Reached home, text with zhijie then fell asleep. Enjoy my day! ^^

Yesterday, woke up around 2plus. Tiredddd. Then went to eat and prepare. Left my house and met zhjie at petir. Went up his house to slack. Then jackie came too. Watched tv till 7pm. Left his house then met noelle at petir. Walked to bp interchange and waited for bus. Had a chat with zhijie and noelle in the bus. Me and noelle alighted at cck first while zhijie went back to his camp. Then went walked around in cck. In the end, we decided to sing k. Went to sing k until 9plus, nearly 10pm. Lols, sing until my throat abit pain. Then walked to sunshine place to eat. Chit chat with noelle. Then walked to bus stop and wait for bus back to panjang. Had a chat with noelle. Hais. Then went back petir, met up with zhixian. Slack awhile, then went up his house used toilet. Then walked home. Reached home, used lappy then went to sleep. (:

Today, woke up around 12plus. Dint really slept well last night. Kept waking up for no reason. Don't know why. Then watched tv, text with noelle and zhijie. Later going chevron with mummy, fiona and noelle. Haha, i'm tired. Update later or next time! ♥

Having a bad impression on YOU!!

Maybe i will, but not now. ♥

2010-08-26T16:53:00.002+08:00

Tuesday, went lot one to find zx around 11plus. Reach there, went over to 302 slack while zx eat. Chit chat with them. Slack till 1plus then walked home with zx and ignatius. Talked about something. And i'm shocked to hear. Tsk. Reach teck whye, ignatius reach home. So fast la. Zzz. Then continued walked with zx. Talked about another thing too. I'm regret. Hais, but i can't do anything because it's the past. Then noelle called me and accompany me to talk while zx walked home. Reach home, tired and hungry. Cooked maggie mee and eat. After eating, then headed to bed. Tireddddddddd.

Yesterday, woke up around 2plus or 3. Went to bath then met up with noelle at petir. Saw veron, calvin and mervyn. Then veron asked us to help her do thingy. Zzz, no choice had to agree. Then went bpp to eat mac. Hungry. Then went back to noelle house. Put my stuff then went 163 to meet veron and calvin. Accompanied them to eat then went to do stuff. Finished all the stuff at around 9plus, met up with the rest at 108 downstairs. Then went up ahma house for awhile. Watched tv then off to ten mile to fetch brother first. Then went to cck to fetch another person and last, went to woodlands to fetch their friend and one girl. Went rounding. We got a car, a bike and a lorry. And three of it had triangle plate. Hahaha, cool ^^ Then headed to marina barrage first. Took one picture with the girls. (:
Haha. Chit chat with nicole while mervyn preparing to surprised her with a cake. Then we sang birthday songs. And ate the cake. Yumyum^^ Then slack awhile. Went henderson waves. Reached there, chit chat and slack. Wanted to go haunted house at don't know where but in the end never went. :/ Haha. Then went west coast park to play. All of them went to play while me, noelle, mer, nicole, jinkiat and zp sat down and chit chat. Lols. All of them played till crazy. Then around 3plus to 4 and went home. Went to jurong first to sent ppl home, then woodlands and last was bukit panjang. Reached home around 5plus. Damn tired. Text zhijie, but he never reply me so i fall asleep.

Today, woke up around 2plus. Tired like hell. Did nothing today. Later meeting noelle after her work. And yay, tmr is friday! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ Happy!!! Tmr will be busy day, i guess? Update later or tmr. I'm tired, want to sleep already :)

2010-08-22T21:50:00.003+08:00

My good friends! :)

Overdue pictures :)

Ok, i am tired now. Update my blog while waiting noelle to come my house and eat then go sleep.

Fuck. Just finish typing my post and in the end, dint save. Not going to re-write again. Irritating. Argghhhh. :(((((((((((((((((((((((((

Anyway, spent my weekend with zhijie and co. And i guess every week will be the same. Hope faster friday luhh :/ Had steamboat with zhijie and jack yesterday. Happy ^^ and ate till very full :) Next week will be eating cdk? I don't know? I really feel eating cdk dinner and lunch too. -.- don't feel like writing already. Continued next time.

I need a full time jobbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb! :(

Willing to change just cause of you.♥

2010-08-19T14:33:00.003+08:00

True friends will never leave you no matter what happened. And yeah, something happened to me.

I received message from both of your, saying stop contacting all that. I was shocked and don't even know what had happened. I replied your and kept asking what had happened, but both of your dint said the truth. All your know were to ask me to respect your decision and don't contact. We had been friends for so long. Just because we seldom meet up this few months then your want to end this friendship? This is not the first time already. People do change, isn't it? I knew your would said after knowing him, i changed. But did i really changed? No, i never. I'm still the yingying your know. But to your, your think that i had changed. I don't know why. The first time we quarrel cause of this matter again, i was damn angry until i cried. Is not just a few tears coming out, is really alot. I really don't know why i cried till badly that time. Even my mother also shocked. Still remember you were on the phone with noelle? I was inside too. Because i want to listen what you said. And i am damn disappointed. I can't imagine you say bad thing behind my back. I wanted to say out, but noelle asked me not to. I treat you as my good friend and don't want to lose you as my good friend, that's why i dint said out until today.

Last time you stayed at jelapang, no matter how late or what, i did went there and find you. Now i had moved house to fajar, did you came over and find me? No, you don't. Sometimes you called me and asked where am i, i said at fajar. But you dint came over too. I never angry or what. And you will be wondering why everytime i can go petir until late late to find noelle but not your. I will tell you the reason now. Is because noelle is my very best friend. No matter how late or how tired we are, we still will meet up.

Don't you think that our friendship is drifting apart? We wasn't that close anymore. And this matter don't even concern noelle, what for your sent noelle that message? Is like unreasonable, ok? Until yesterday we saw aloy, and zx went over and asked him what had happened. And the same matter again. Because we never meet up all that. When i heard this, i'm damn angry. What's century is this now? Still play this kind of stunts? We all grown up already. We no longer kids anymore.

Since you said stop contacting, i respect your decision. And this is my blog. What i want to write, is my business. I don't care if you will read my blog anot. We're not friends anymore. That's it.

2010-08-15T23:59:00.001+08:00

Alright, finally had the time to update my blog.

Nowadays, spent my time working with zhixian, qianru and noelle at CDK. Had fun working there. All the people there were very friendly and kind. Haha. But too bad, today is my last day working there. Because they hire full time people and don't need part time people already. Sad :/ But still will visit them because zhixian and qianru will be working as full timer starting next tuesday. Lols. Also spent my time slacking with noelle, zhixian, qianru and sometime CK too. Hahahaha.

Oh-ya! Zhijie went in ns already. So fast! :/ Hais. Miss him la! :/

Friday, work half day then went back panjang to meet up with noelle. Went up her house and bath cause i'm sticky -.- Then went to meet zhijie and accompany him to gombak to alter his pants. Took bus there. And walk quite far. I'm sweating! -.- After finishing doing his thing, went back cck to meet up the rest. Saw isaac and his friends outside mac. Went to chat with them. After that, went 302 eat. Chit chat with them. Slack awhile at cck then went back home. Tired.

Saturday, went to work. Full shift :/ Tired. Btw, Happy birthday jovin'sweetie mei! :) Went to find her awhile as she were at iluma! :) Then zhijie and his friends came find us. Helped to move things from bounce to seven. Tired and heavy :/ After that, took cab to pick noelle then went chervon to find mummy, gan ma and gan papa. Played pool with noelle. Sang songs too. Then took cab to panjang. Went 103 to eat. Chit chat with noelle then went up to qianru house. Slack awhile then went home. Tired like hell.

Today, dint went to work in the morning. Sorry :/ Too tired and somemore i overslept. Continued to sleep till 1plus then woke up. Bathed, eat and everything, left my house and went to find zhijie. Went up his house. Watched tv and slack awhile. Then around 5plus, he accompany me to wait for bus cause im going work. Last time i used to accompany him to wait for bus, but now is he accompany me to wait. Lols. Then went to work. Damn slack today. Work till 8.30pm jiu go le. Went cck to meet up with CK and also had dinner there. Then something bad happened. Zx and qr quarrel. This is the first time they quarrel until want to fight. So scary. Hais. Then went back panjang, slack awhile jiu walked home. Tired. Will be sleeping soon. Update tmr!

I hope we can be together again because i really love you.
Hope that fate will be us back again. ♥

2010-07-30T16:53:00.004+08:00

Suddenly felt like blogging.

Had not been feeling well this few days due to stomach pain. Sad :/ Wednesday night, went down cck to meet up with emelda. Slack outside mac with her friends. Soon, time passed fast. Noelle end work and came find me. Then we walked to 302 while emelda went home. On the way there, saw zhenghao. Shocked to see him cause it's like a week dint saw him. Haha. Then he accompany us eat. And he treat us drink cause we broke :/ Thanks :) Then chit chat with him. Saw zhixian they all. They sat beside us. Then continued chit chat with zhenghao. After that, all of them walked away. Some went smoking, some accompany. Then rst were alone eating. Accompany him and talked with him too. Then go find them awhile jiu go off. In lrt, we kept deciding whether want go lan anot. But in the end, we decided. So i went home to take something while noelle went home bath. Met her at some block downstairs and walked to plaza to withdraw money. and noelle were high. Cause her pay come -.- Is like when i got money, she broke. She go money then i broke. Wtf? Then walked there. Saw raymond, kenneth and my brother! Play lan for about 3hours then went 103 and eat. Hungry : Then chit chat awhile jiu go home. Reached home, washed up and fall alseep.
Yesterday, fetch brother to school then went back home use lappy. Noelle called, went to prepare everything then went took lrt. Met her at south view lrt. Ate sushi at keat hong :> Order quite alot of foods. Took some pictures too. After eating, carry a heavy stomach and walked to lot one. Noelle bought my belated present. Happy and thanks :) She bought her stuff too. And total spent $103 for four clothes. Consider cheap? Lol, then went walked around lot one. Noelle had to go work early. Accompany her to wait for bus and i took lrt home. Reached home, use lappy and alas called. Ask to meet me and slack. I had no idea why i rejected him :/ Then around 7plus, chat on the phone with emelda. Then went cck again to meet her while waiting for noelle to off work. I saw quite alot of ppl! I saw my working friend when i work at OG! Damn shocked to see her. Happy :) Then saw zen, barry, xinyu. Chit chat with them awhile then headed to smoking area to chit chat with emelda. Around 9plus, went back panjang meet noelle. She treat her family eat and i went too. Reached 163, saw alas. Then chit chat with noelle and her family. Her father very funny. Disturb me -.- Haha. Then eat finish and went 108 downstairs slack. Saw gan papa and gan ma. Oh man! And gan ma started to console me again. Thanks... And gan ma asked noelle to help me find job. Lols. Then gan ma asked me go work at wecga. Work 5hours and do paper work -.- Zzz, but i don't think i'll go ba. Then they waited for mervyn and ahyang to come down as they going eat at timah. So me and noelle followed. Had a little chat with mervyn. Thanks :) Then he said to me one month later, henderson waves to chit chat with him :) Reach timah, chit chat with them. Funny and kept laughing. And the service there totally sucks ttm. We order first yet our food came last. Wtf. Then talked about the clubbing on 8 august. Still don't know want to go anot :) Mervyn also don't know want to go anot cause is like the ticket abit ex? Lols. Then gan papa sent us home. Reached home, use lappy. Zhixian called and asked me to help him do thingy. I agreed... Then around 3plus, fall asleep.
Raining today! Nice to sleep :) Fetch brother to school and went back sleep again. Woke up around 3plus due to hungry! :/ but there's nothing to eat. Use lappy. Texting with emelda and noelle. And scb helped me find job! Might be working at bugis for the time being ba? Thanks! Appreciate it alot. At least there's something for me to do than staying at home day dreaming. Alright. Stop here. Going to do my nails first. Then later heading to lot one to meet emelda and also meet noelle after her work. Update when i feel like. ♥

4 more days.

2010-07-28T12:35:00.004+08:00

I've got alot of things to say right now. But my mind now is like suddenly blank. Wtf? Have to use my brain and think slowly again.

I still remember how i get to know you. Last week of February, 2010, i went up to noelle's house. That's was the first time i saw you. I'm shy as your looking at me so i left first. I dint really know that thingy will get more complicated. When i'm with noelle one day, your asked to play mj. And you even asked if can played at my house. I don't know why i agreed. And i still remember on 1 march 2010, is the day we officially known each other. You were playing mj and you left first cause you having school the next day. And we started texting with each other. 3 days later, you told me you had feelings for me. I don't believe it cause it's totally too fast. And yeah, i told noelle about this cause i don't know who to talk with. She asked me not to be with you cause your reputation not very good. And i said orh. You asked me for stead but i rejected. And also i want to see how long you can wait. During the whole month of march, we spent alot of times together. We played mj everyday at my house. I admit that i start to have feelings for you but not that much. Qr did asked me why i will like you? I say don't know. You treat me good and sent me home when we were outside. And i dint know that you stayed so near me and yet i never seen you before in panjang area. So on 1 april, i accepted you. You said you were very happy and will cherish me. I'm happy too. So life still go on. Mj everyday. And went down cck to slack. You introduce your friends to me. All so friendly. Moved house that day, you never came down and helped me. I dint angry at all. Cause you were tired. But i'm sad that we stay quite far now. Our one month anniversary, we went to town. But in the end, we were quarreled cause of small matters. I'm sad. But in the end, we were okay. During may, lots of thing happened. Both of us had sore eyes. You were having sore eyes but yet you still went to work. I'm so worried for you. One day, me, zh, rst and jack went down to town and played l4d2 while waiting for you and your brother to off work. All of them treat and take care of me. Then met up with you. You look so tired. And you drank. You were leaning on my shoulder and said you're abit drank and you almost fall asleep. And it's my turn to have sore eyes. I stayed at home for like two weeks and seldom met up with you. And thingy changed. Just cause i want to see you, i went down cck to find you. To me, you like don't appreciate it at all. And i starting to feel that i've been neglected by you. So i requested to break up. And yeah, i did cried that time. I cried till very badly and my eyes were having sore eyes that day. It's painful. Emelda, noelle and zhixian were there to consoled me. Your brother called me and told me he's shocked and also heart pain when he saw you cried. He told me i'm the first girl who made you shed tears just in two months. I'm shocked to hear it. Eventually, i took back all the words. I regretted saying all those. Cause i told myself, i really love you, why should i let you go? At that time, i realized you're important to me. I cant bear to lose you. We did break and patch many times. But nevertheless, i still love you. That time, you treat me cold when we were at cck. Then you walked away with jacky. And i went back panjang with noelle. In lrt, i cried damn badly. Noelle consoled me. Met up with zx, and i cried. He consoled me too. Then went 163 to eat. You came with jacky they all. After eating, both of us had chat. You hugged me and i almost cry but you said don't cry. I'm happy that we're alright. June, i started working. After work, i went down cck to find you no matter how tired am i or how late it is. But did you appreciate it? No, you don't. But thing getting worst. So june 18, is the day we officially broke up. You said you start to get annoyed by my attitude and all that. And yeah, i'm sad. I cried. Cause that only the thingy i can do. You said be friends better. I don't agree because i still can't accept the fact. After the break up, i tried my best to forget about you and try my best to treat you as my friend. I took damn long time just to treat you as my friend. Eventually, i did. We were friends again. Then we started to play mj together again. My 17th birthday that day, i enjoyed it because you were there. I thought you won't came but eventually you came. I'm definitely happy. I made three wishes. I pray hard it'll come true. When i'm abit drunk, you did helped me. Thanks. I lean on your shoulder which i felt very comfortable but in the end, my mum sat beside me. On july 11, we patched. I'm damn happy. I really don't know what words i can said. But i told myself it's ain't easy for us to be back together again, and i'll never let you go. And yeah, we went out again. Play mj together. As days passed, i felt you don't even treat me as your gf. So i asked you and yet you still can said don't know. I really felt damn sad. And you said we be friends better. And yeah, we broke up. Cried. Wtf? Then what's the point of patching with me when you yourself don't even know you got treat me as your gf anot? That's not the main point. The main point is, did you still love me? Ask yourself, did you ever done a part as a boyfriend? When i saw those boyfriend treat his girlfriend so good, i'm jealous. I was wondering why you don't treat me well. You once said before is i'm the one who doesn't want to step into this relationship, but now i step in, what did you do? You made me love you so deeply and you left me with a scar, bleeding. You're going in ns soon. You will never know how much i misses you right now. How much i really want to see you. How much i really want to hug you tightly. I really miss the times we spent together last time. I miss the times we played mj together. I miss the times we ton together. I miss the times we slack together at cck. I miss the times walking from cck to gombak with you. I miss the times we went watch movie together. I miss the times we talked and laugh together. I miss the times you came my house and stay over. I miss the times when you say you love me. I miss holding your hands. I miss hugging you. I just miss everything that we spent together. But did you miss? I doubt so. I hope to spend time with you, but did you bother? No, you don't. Still remember i asked you go watch movie when we were tgt that time? You said don't want. And after we broke up, you, qr and zx still went to watch movie. Wtf? Yes, i admit i'm jealous when qr talked or do whatever with you. But i can't say much. Besides it, your known each other longer. Now you said be friend, and i accepted it. But did you treat me as friend? You reply my messages so cold. What's the point of texting with you and be friend? You all along know that i really love you, but did you bother? I'm not for you to play, my dear. I'm human too. You kept hurting me again and again. Even though i'm damn unhappy and angry about how you treated, but deep down my heart, i dint even blame you because i still love you. I'm a girl who will get easily hurt, jealous easily and also think too much. I just want you to love me, concern me and cares about me. Is that so difficult? I don't request so much thing like other girls. I don't mind if you don't buy anything for me. I just need your love. You're the first guy i really really love. Sighs. Write all this in my blog, also useless. You already move on but i still stuck here alone. Tell me what should i do. Seriously i don't know.. I just know one thing, i still love you seriously. Believe it anot, is up to you. That's all i want to say. I might not see you one last time before you go in ns. Take good care of yourself. I guess you'll find a better girl than me. And if we're really meant to be together, fate will bring us back together again... ♥

6 more days.

2010-07-27T20:54:00.002+08:00

Fetched brother to school first. Went home bath, and meet noelle at petir lrt. Headed to cck ite. Felt weird cause wear home clothes which is like everybody is looking at you. :/ Then went to find cedric and jeremy. And i saw vivien and emily! Haha. Damn miss them. Then saw desmond too! Then went up to level 6 just to find the two of them. Went down to don't know which level to eat. Ate my lunch at eco cafe. Chicken rice! ^^ Not really nice. :/ Then waited for jeremy to come. Then walk over to another cafe and find rst. Damn long never see him sia. He changed. -.- learn know how to shoot ppl already. Haha. Then went plaza with noelle, cedric and jeremy. Slacked at the kopitam. Slack awhile then walk to interchange and took bus back. Tired. Reached home, use lappy awhile and viven called. She came to find me at fajar. (; Damn miss her. Chit chat with her. And she told me about her work stuff. And i just listened. She very poor thingy. Like very stress in work. Then accompany her to fajar and buy her dinner then wait for cab and i went home. Meeting scb later. And i'm tired. Update tmr! (:

2010-07-26T22:28:00.002+08:00

Went timah and ate steamboat for dinner with noelle. Extremely full. Feel like vomiting now. Took bus back to panjang and slack. Went up noelle's house to use toilet then went home. Just reached home not long ago. Won't be updating blog so often. Start to get bored here. Sian. Finding a full time job soon, so that i won't be staying at home, thinking about those unhappy stuff. Mood won't be good this few days.

I'm tired of everything. Fuck. I'm still not happy about it.
Who can i talk to?

2010-07-25T23:59:00.001+08:00

My eyes look very small in above pictures. Don't know why lehs. Wear contact lens, but still freaking small. Sad :/ Alas came fetch me and went 163 for dinner together with his friend and stephanie. She look damn skinny sia. Then went cck meet emelda. One month dint meet up with her. Had a chat with her. Then noelle and xu hui walked passed us. Went slacking together under blk. Chit chat. And accompany xu hui to wait for mrt. Then walked to lrt with scb. Took pictures. Listening to song in lrt. Soon, reached fajar. Saw jack's virus. Lols. But she dint saw me. Reached home, ate curry chicken. Nice~ Meeting bff tmr!♥ Happy! Long time dint meet up already! Should be sleeping soon. Tired.

Ask yourself this, did you really did a part as a boyfriend?
But i still love you, seriously. ♥

2010-07-25T16:15:00.002+08:00

I guess today post will be long. Cause suddenly i feel like blogging due to bored-ness :/

Friday, went house downstairs to find alas. Jovin, salina and alas's friend were there too. Chit chat and slack with them. Then around 5plus, they left. I went to fetch brother then went home use lappy first. Around 7plus, went down sintua. Did nothing much too. Help out. Time passed fast. Soon, everything ended. While waiting for alas to fetch me, chit chat with cousin. So funny la :) Haha. The mummy called. *we talked in chinese*
Mummy: At where?
Me: sintua, why?
Mummy: papa still doing thingy?
Me: ya, why?
Mummy: no la, want ask you to help me something.
Me: you called honey and help you. cause i never go home today.
Mummy: go where?
Me: go out with alas.
Mummy: who?
Me: the tall tall guy, wear spect. got come our house before de.
Mummy: orhhhh. okay.
She never asked me so much when i told her i going out with alas. She like fang xin i go out with alas. Haha. First time sia. Then alas came. Walked over to find him. Headed to 302 first. Thought of waiting for zhixian to eat finish then play mahjong but don't know why never wait so alas called danhui and asked. Luckily she say okay. So went over to her house and fetch her. Shocked that she still remember who am i. Lols. Then went back to alas's house for mahjong. Play two plot. And in the end, i won 3 bucks. Then her mother suddenly woke up. Her mother said that very long dint went up her house already. And she also said must go up if i'm free, if not she called me. Haha. Then went back 302 to eat. And alas drove me home. Reached home, fell asleep. Tired.

Yesterday slept till 2plus cause qr called me. Asked me accompany her to town to do her nails. Asked boy go together but he tired and lazy. Nevermind. Met qr at cini around 4plus. Walked around and chit chat with her. Accompany her to eat. Then went to do her nails. Did her nails for like around one and half hour. And i saw hello kitty nails. Then i told qr that if got winnie the pooh nails, i confirm do. Haha. Then took cab back to panjang to meet up with noelle. Ate chicken chop for dinner. Noelle can't finish her noodle then helped her finish up. Hungry. Then went back to qr house for mahjong. Shocked that noelle played mahjong cause she dint played for half a year already? Haa. Then we played 3 ppl mahjong. It's damn intersting. Played till 4 plots and boy and his brother came. Then they continued playing while me and noelle rest on qr's bed. Tired die. And i almost fell asleep. Mood wasn't good. And asked noelle to go. Went 103 to eat cause we hungry. Told noelle everything. Thanks scb for listening my problems. Walked home alone. Alas called me and chat till i reached home. Thanks daddy. Reached home, use fb awhile then fell asleep.

Today, slept till 3plus then wake up. Tired die. And i guess i won't be going out later. I'm still tired. Still not eaten anything. Hais. Update later or tmr ba.

9 more days.
I really want to spend my whole time with you in this 9 days.

2010-07-23T15:45:00.002+08:00

Don't know why nowadays i don't feel like going out. Hais. Life is getting more and more boring. I want go alot of places with boy before he go in ns! :( But he's like busy working. Hais, nevermind. Guess will be rotting at home this few days. Will be going sintua later to help out. And meeting alas, alas's friend and jovin to slack under my house downstairs soon. Damn superrrrrrrr long never see him alrdy. And hope to meet up with boy later after his work. Two days dint see him alrdy. I'm tired. Update later or tmr. Byeeeee. ♥

11 more days!

2010-07-22T18:43:00.003+08:00

It's ain't easy for us to be back together again.
I'm happy.
Really very happy.
I love you, ozj! ♥

12 more days!

2010-07-21T19:44:00.004+08:00

Dearest sister! I ♥ her alotzxzxzxzx! Whenever i cried, she will come towards me and sayang my head. And also take tissue to me. Even though she's only 2 years old this year, but she know how to express her concern towards me. Hahaha. Love die her! ♥♥♥

I miss boyfriend! D: Just saw him from yesterday till this morning but i still miss him. Hahhs. I guess i'm crazy over him :/ Did nothing much today. Spent my time sleeping in the afternoon. And i guess later also still at home. Bored die :/ Haven't ate my dinner yet. Guess later cooking maggie mee to eat as i'm lazy to go out. Lols.

Update later! ♥

2010-07-21T11:13:00.003+08:00

Just reached home not long ago. Tired but don't feel like sleeping.

Yesterday, rain so heavily! :/ Made me don't even feel like going out. Took bus and met boy, zhixian, qianru and zhenghao at far east plaza. Reached there, they decided to go suntec and watched movie. Took bus there. In bus, don't really had the mood cause of ... Hais. Then mummy called. Kp me. Fuck. Damn dulan with her. Skip~ Don't feel like typing what happened. Then walked to the cinema. We took very long time to decide to watch which movie. In the end, we watched inception( spell correct ba :/). Movie start at 845, so we went to pizza hut for our dinner. Chit chat. Laughs like hell. Soooooo funny la. Then went to smoke and went up to the cinema. Movie started. Quite boring in the beginning and i don't really understand what it talking about. Then boy explained to me the story and i started to understand abit luh (: Zhixian fell asleep in the first part but he woke up in the second part -.- Overall, the movie is not bad. Nice show! (: Movie ended, qianru took cab to 69 then four of us walked to 69 to find her. While walking, they kept saying about the show. Hahs. Funny lah.(; Reached 69, went in and sit down. Chit chat and listen to songs. Slack till 3plus, took cab back to qianru's house for mahjong. I dint played. Went there just to accompany boy. In the end, i fall asleep. Boy also -.- Tired luh. Then i kept waking up. In the end, they asked boy to play mahjong. While waiting for them to play finish, i fall asleep again. Tired :/ Then around 10plus, they played finish. Then i took lrt home. Damn tired. But i enjoyed myself with them especially with boy!♥ Reach home, fetch brother to school then went to buy mac. Yay, ate spicy nuggets! ^^ Nice to eat. Hohoho. And i guess sleeping the whole day today? Boy going wedding dinner later then noelle with her primary school friends. Boring. Hais :/

13 more days D:

Happy that you're mine again ♥

2010-07-19T18:35:00.002+08:00

Dearest cousin. Taken at cousin's wedding last year. Damn miss her. Last time we used to go out but now, we seldom meet. Seldom contact. Whatever is it, we are still best cousin. Meet up soon k? Loves (Y)

Last night, suppose to go qr house for mahjong but in the end dint went. Lazy to walk. Then called mummy. Asked her helped me buy mac when she on the way home. Waited for her until 2plus then went to buy mac myself. Having gastric pain recently :O Wanted to eat spicy nuggets but in the end, no more. *angry* then was texting with boyf and zhixian. Text until fall asleep. Kept waking up in the midnight. Don't know why. Maybe because boyf still not home yet ba :/ Then fetch bao to school. Suppose to go town today with boyf they all but in the end, never go. Cause all tired. Then i went to bath and went down to sintua. Did nothing much there as not much ppl. Then went to bangkit walk walk with mummy. I buy the pants i always want to have. Cost me about $29. It's expensive :O Then went back sintua. Noelle came find me. Talk talk awhile then went back home to fetch bao. And might be going down sintua again. Sleeping early tonight because tmr going town with boyf, zhixian, qianru and zhenghao to watch movie! ♥

I really don't like it when ppl asked me why i never study all that. I know they're just being concern. But when i told them next year then study, they started to nag at me. Saying why don't want study this year? You still young, but you don''t want study. Did i said i don't want study? I know alot of ppl was shocked to hear that i dint study this year but i did said that next year then study. I'm very lazy to explain why i dint study this year. Whether i want study anot, is my problem. Not their problem. *angry*

I don't care what others want to say about my relationship with him. I know alot of ppl dislike it but it's my problem. Since i have chosen this path, i will bear the consequences myself at the end of it. Yes, I know one day he will leave me and i will get hurt again. But i am very happy that i got him back now. Seriously. Before we were together, we met each other when playing mahjong. When we patch, it also mahjong. I just want to spend more time with him now. I will never let him go anymore. Cause i lose him once before. I don't want to lose him again. That feelings really damn sucks. So boy, don't leave me anymore. Okay? I love you!♥

Disappointed in you, seriously. Nothing else i can say. Gf? I don't believe it.

2010-07-19T00:05:00.002+08:00

Back to post.

Dint really got the mood to update blog. Don't know why. Kind of lazy and busy too. Nowadays mahjong with boyf, zhixian, jack and zhenghao. Went sintua helped out too. Did paperwork nia. So relaxing! :/ But boring too. Met scb almost everyday. My lesbo la! :) But dint met her today :/ Yesterday went sintua helped out. Did paperwork and went bo guan with noelle. Luckily noelle came and save me. If not, i'm alone. Thanks :) Then went to eat our dinner. Chit chat and went 116 downstairs to slack. Chit chat with her. Then around 12plus, walked to fajar to meet up with boyf, zhixian and jack. Mahjong again :) Played till morning then boyf stay over at my house. Slept till 8plus then woke up. Damn tired. Went to bath then walked to 163 eat dinner with boyf. Chat with him then walked to petir lrt then went home. Tired.

Happy ♥

2010-07-13T17:53:00.002+08:00

I'll never let you go.
Loving you is easy but forgetting you is difficult.
But i chose to love you.
Seeing the one i love is happy, eventually i will felt happy too.
Even though without you, life seems meaningless,
But you are the guy who i love.
Really really love.
Thanks for everything when we are together.
Appreciate it alot.
Takecare, my dearest boy.
Last of all, i love you ♥

Hi, won't be updating my blog so often. Cause will be busy with stuff. Will update my blog once i use computer. This few days kept playing mahjong. I think going crazy over mahjong le. And sintua starting soon. Going to help out. Hope noelle is free to go down and help out too. If not, i will be alone. Sadded :/ Alright, going out soon to meet daddy for dinner. Byeeeeeeeee (Y)

2010-07-10T15:25:00.006+08:00

Alright, finally have the time to update my blog :) I guess this post will be long cause i going post what had happened from wednesday to today :)

Wednesday, went far east plaza with mirrah. Dint found anywhere dress i want. All not really nice. Then we walked around of round and yet still can't find. Sad :/ Then we took mrt to bugis. Ate yami yogurt! ^^ So long dint eat already. Haha. Then went to bugis street. Also dint found anywhere dress. Sad :/ Then went iluma. And i buy the jacket which i wanted to buy!! :) It's cost about $32 after 20% discount. Without hesitate, i straight buy! Happy :) Then walked walked around, mirrah's bf called. So went to take bus back to panjang to meet her bf. In the bus, i felt very tired. Keep closing my eyes :/ Soon, reach panjang. Walked to bpp. Went to buy sushi and i took bus to sunshine place to fetch scb while they went home. Reach sunshine place, went to find scb. Tired die. Then wait for her to end work at 10pm. Sit at one corner, listen to song while waiting for her. Finally, she end work. Took cab back to her house. Pack her stuff and walked back to my house. Scb staying at my house :) Then meet zhijie, zhixian, zhenghao and jack at fajar. Went back my house for mahjong. Woohoo, can't believe i win -.- Then played till half way, ahem called me. Told me something which i really don't know what to do. I really very confused. Both are my friend. I really wish both of them will come tmr but i need to chose either one of them. Hais, then went back to continue mahjong. I had been kept quiet after i received that call. Hais. Mood wasn't good. And qian ru came my house too. She and noelle went to buy mac for us. Thanks. Then we eat mac and also watch soccer first. Told scb about this. She also don't know what to do. hais. skip skip skip. Then continue mahjong. Played till 5plus, kept everything then went to sleep. Tired die.

Thursday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF :D fetch brother to school then went to bath and prepared everything. Went parkway parade with noelle. Finally i brought my dress! :) It's cost me $39.90. Expensive but i bear to buy it :) Cause it's nice :) Then took cab to imm. Meer up with mirrah. Thought got shuttle bus but don't know where is it. So took cab to chevron. Reach chevron, changed and put make up. Thanks noelle :D Then went into the room and start singing. Jeffrey came first. After that, went to play pool with noelle. I lose :/ tsk. Then qr, zhijie and zhixian came :) Then slowly more and more ppl came. Er gugu, caisan jie, weilin and his family came too. Ah bee jie and her bf came too :) Then alas came with tien hao :) Anngee came with kenneth and weixin. And alot more ppl came too. Then alas asked me to drink one cup of beer! And i drink. Then went in, gan ma asked me to drink one cup too! And i drink! Mummy asked me to drink one cup too! And i drink! Anngee asked me to drink too! And i drink. Was abit of giddy but i'm not drunk. No strength to stand. Need ppl helped me :/ Then cut cake. Was totally can't take it. So whoever stand beside me, i will lean on to him/her. I know isaac is beside me when i holding the cake. And i lean on to him cause totally no strength. Thanks:) Then vera was the one who keep holding on to me. Thanks! :) after cutting cake, vera was sitting next beside me and i lean on her shoulder. Out of sudden, i cried. :/ Suddenly think of the past then cried. Vera consoled me. Told me alot of thing and i'm shocked to hear this. Then zhixian consoled me too. Thanks lao ge! Father, noelle, mummy was there to consoled me too. Thanks. Took alot of pict. I already upload in my fb. Will upload some in here only. After that, i felt better. And around 12plus, everyone went. Father bring me and noelle to batok and eat. Then went home. Tired die.
Thanks for everyone who came to my birthday celebration. Anngee, noelle, zhijie, zhixian, qian ru, zhenghao, jack, Yong hwee, vera, tina, jovin, vanessa, lingsheng, jason, isaac, alas, tien hao, korkor, mervyn, ahyang, zhuangpoh, weisian, cheechong, boontiong, mummy, peter uncle, fiona, ahling gugu, caisan jiejie, ahbee jie, eric, er gugu, weilin kor, meiling jie, papa, sinyi, mummy, jeffrey, mirrah, kenneth, weixin, ahming, veron and calvin. Appreciate it alot. I really enjoyed myself. And sorry if i dint entertain you. :/ Thanks to NOELLE NHQ for accompanying me the whole day. I think got 24 hrs ba. (: And thanks to those who wished me in fb and texts. Thanks ;D I really enjoyed my 17th birthday :)

More pictures in facebook. (: And today slept till 3plus. tired die. Might be finding noelle later. And i only ate bread, famous amos cookies plus a cup of ribena for my breakfast/lunch. Haha. Cool ^^ On diet now! (: Update later :D

2010-07-07T12:02:00.003+08:00

Yesterday met noelle for dinner. Met at 163 after her work. Then aloy, lk and ter come find us :) Was damn pissed with somebody. Only scb know. Fuck, don't always say other when you yourself ain't perfect. Seriously, i hate it when ppl said about my friends or loves one. And don't know why this few days you become so gl. You wasn't like this in the past. Hais, nevermind. People do change. Then walked to 108 to slack. Laykoon damn funny lah :) Keep making us laugh :) Then jeffrey called me. Scb helped me answer. And jeffrey said 'happy birthday' ! Noelle was like huh? Haha. So funny. He thought today is my birthday. Jidao malu lor he. Tsktsktsk. :) Then walked back fajar to meet up with zhijie, zhixian and zhenghao. Hehhs, then went back my house played mahjong. First time i bring three guys home? Haha. Then played till half way, alas called. So went down to help him paid the cab fare and they smoke at downstairs. Suddenly, two police walked pass. Haha. They said residents complaint that at midnight there's always a group at downstairs making loud noise. Yeah, totally agrree with police. I also heard it sometimes. Soooooo noise. Then went up, continued our mahjong. Then don't know what happened, the two brothers quarrel. Don't know for what. Haiyo. Then suddenly zx and zh like quarrel? Haiya, i don't know what happened between the three of them. Then zh like not happy so he went home first. Then we played second plot. Woohoo, i never lose. Consider lucky lor! Haha. Then accompanied alas walked to bangkit. Haiyo, daddy. Don't sad anymore. Cheer up. I know how you feel cause this also happened to me. Somemore is just few weeks ago. Seeing the one you love happy, you also will felt happy. Maybe your don't meant to be together? Can't be lover, your still can be friend ma. My aunt told me something. I think let you know also good. She told me move on, my dear. Looking forward for a brighter path. Just left the unhappiness in the past. Time will cure your pain. It is no worth to stay on for someone who is already got 'no heart'. Good ones are still around you, go ahead and let him go. The next one sure will be better. No point cling on with it who don't know how to treasure you. Be a beautiful princess to a prince charming who is really need your love and know how to treasure and loves you. Don't be a ugly princess that only know how to shed tears for a 'no heart' prince. Alright, this is what my aunt told me lah. I never asked you to do what my aunt said. Just want to share with you what my aunt told me when i was feeling down that day. Yeah, after reading what she had told me, i told myself , no point cling on to it when the other party dint even bother about you. I had to move on and carry on with my life. If i can, you also can do it de. :) But i still hope your can be together :) Cheer up lah. Anything feel free to tell me. I can't helped much but i can be your listener :) Then walked to ahma house downstairs. Thought of taking something but then they was asleep. Haha. So sit down at 108 with zhijie and zhixian. Chat awhile then went home. Tired. And i only slept for 3hours, i guess? Meeting dearest later. Going town.Then later going cck to fetch scb end work :) Haha. Update when i reach home later (Y)

2010-07-06T19:50:00.002+08:00

Last minute friend's salary haven't come so never go bugis. Sadded :( Hais. Then spent my time rotting at home. Bored die :/ Went bpp with mother. Wanted to buy clothes but in the end never buy. Then went fajar. Mother buy psp again! haiyo. She very rich siol. Already got one psp liao but still go buy another one. Tsk. But the another psp is at grandma house which is at malaysia! I ask her take back, she like don't want. Forget it. Up to her. But nvm luh. At least got psp to kill time. Hehhs ^^ Then played psp until head pain. Haha. Maybe cause i wearing the contact lens. :/ It's expire for two months plus and yet i still dare to wear :/ Lol, i guess i going to buy contact lens later :D Meeting scb later at 163 to eat. Cause staying at home damn bored :/Tmr going town with dearest. Hope she won't bomb me. Anyway, those who can't make it or don't want to go on this thursday, please text me and let me know by tmr. Please don't last minute. Thanks.

Update later. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (Y)

2010-07-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

Woohoo ~ Don't know why i'm damn high sia! Haha :DDDDDD Maybe ................. Haha. Nothing. I think i crazy already. :D Hmm, today dint really went anywhere. Meet scb after her school. Then go plaza walked walked. Go slack at 106 downstairs. I saw somebody! Face so familiar. When i see him, i was like thinking where i saw him before. Guess what, is zj's father -.- He was looking at me and i was like don't know should i called him uncle cause the way he looked at me like don't recognizes me. Haha. Skip skip skip. Then went home. Rot at home. So boreddddddd :/ And yeah, tmr going bugis! Time to go shopping! Hope i won't spend too much tmr. Hehh ^^ Sleeping soon. (:
And noelle ah, i'm just joking only la. Don't need buy the cake la. The cake so expensive sia :/ I also don't bear to waste my money on the cake. Haha. See you on wednesday night ah. I go fetch you after your work ok? :D
Mahjong on wednesday night, anyone? :D Text me ppl! :D

2010-07-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

Just finish helping scb to update her blog. And now it's my turn :)

Did nothing much today. Slept till 3plus, i think. Don't know why sleep till so late. Then watched tv. Went to bath then went alas gf house for mahjong. Played till 11plus then went petir meet scb. Slack with her at 106 then zx came downstairs find us. Chit chat with him awhile then he went home cause tired. Chit chat with scb then went 103 to eat. Hungry :/ Then walked home. Scb called me and chat till i reach home. Thanks! :) And i guess sleeping soon. Abit tired already :/ And going to spend my time sleeping tmr :D

Heard you sick, must take good care of yourself. Drink more water. Don't always ton/go lan or go home late. Go and see doctor if you're not feeling well. Eat medicine and rest more. Whether you'll read my blog anot, i don't know. But i'm just being concern. That's it. Takecare.

I'm still thinking is that the reason which cause us to be like this? I hope is not D:

2010-07-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

Back to post.

Wanted to eat mac but then there's no electricity at fajar mac. So sudden. Then went ahma house to eat. Saw cousin! Had chat with them :D All of them still the same so noisy, never change -.- Then went plaza buy something and help mother to buy thing too. Saw ahem. Kind of miss the past when we talked and went rounding D: Nevermind, it's already the past. Hehhs. Then went home. Watch tv and did nothing much. Meet scb at 163 to eat. After that, Went 106 downstairs and slack. Suppose to help zx celebrate his birthday but then he's busy. Then nevermind. In the end, noelle sang birthday song to me. Haha. So retarded. Everyone walked pass, will see us. Haha. Took some pictures. Will upload soon ^^ Then both of us ate the cake. Slack awhile, then went home. Tiredddddd ~ Sleeping soon.

Haiyo, so troublesome D:

2010-07-03T13:26:00.002+08:00

Yesterday accompany emelda to alas gf's house to play mahjong. In the end, emelda dint win or lose. Good good ^^ Hehhs. Then went to 163 to eat. Suddenly noelle called. So walked to 508 with emelda to meet noelle, jianyue and his friend. Haha. First time sia, jianyue bring me and noelle go out. And damn long never see him too. ^^ Went pub to drink. And i saw junjie kor! So long dint saw him too. Kind of miss him! Haha. That pub not really fun. I think club burberry better. More high? Haha. Then drink a few cups. Noelle and emelda went smoking. In the end, tio caught. Haha. Cause they see emelda height :/ Then the boss come talk to us. Haha. I love the boss man!! :D He said if we're 18, then we go back to his pub, he'll sponsor us one martell! COOL -.- Then three of us happy! :D But i had to wait for next year then can D: Noelle this years jiu can liao :/ Emelda more worst. 2 more years :/ Haha. Nevermind. In the end, we can't go in. But we never dulan or what, cause the boss talked to us damn nicely. (: And somemore we still got drink ^^ Hehhs. Then three of us went to coffee shop to sit down and wait for jianyue they all. Three of us chatted. Hais. Sad sad. Don't want say. Then called Zhixian to wish him happy birthday. Haha. Damn funny sia :D Was quite high. Keep laughing. Haha. I think i abit giddy. I'm so weak in drinking. I must train :/ Then walked back to the club, met up with them. Then we went lau pa sao to eat. Jianyue treat :) Thanks. Then slack till 4plus. Emelda's friend sponsor us cab fare. Good good :D Then sent jianyue home first, then emelda then noelle and last is me :) Haha. Reach home, wash up. Then went to sleep. Enjoyed my day with them. :D Haha. I realized something. Me and noelle will confirm meet each other everyday. Haha. Like les siol :/ But we are not :) In fact, we are good good friend :D And my pay coming next week. Woohoo~ Time to go shopping :DD Haha, i will update later. :D

If you want me to talk to you nicely, then talk to me nicely first.

And HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHIXIAN, 老哥!
Hope you find a girl who truly love you :D
Thanks for being there and helped me alot.
Appreciate alot! :D
And sorry i dint went yesterday :/
对不起 ah!
You alway will be my best korkor!
Always treat me and noelle so good.
I will treat you and noelle to eat next pay. ^^
Haha.
And i'm waiting for your wedding.
Haha. Kidding lah ^^
Last of all, hope your dream will come true! :D
爱死你 la! :D
HAHA.
(Y)(Y)(Y)

2010-07-02T16:01:00.001+08:00

Dint went chevron yesterday as i'm only the girl. Met noelle after her work. Went 163 to eat. Then went 106 to slack. We chatted for 2hours plus. That's quite long. Haha. Then walked home alone. She called me and pei me chat till i reached home. Thank zharbo! :D (Y) Today slept till 3plus then wake up. Damn tired and also nice to sleep cause it's raining! :/ Wanted to meet alas later but then mother bringing me out for dinner. And later helping father do paper work :/ Again, paper work. At least got something to do. ^^ Woohoo, damn looking forward next thursday. Noelle, my dearest scb, will be accompanying me from wed night to thursday night! Haha. Thanks ah!!! :DDDDD Ai si ni de la! Hehhes :D And noelle, i want cookies&creams cake ! :DDDDD HAHA. Buy from me hor (:

Alright, i don't know what the hell you want. After breaking up with your girlf, you come and contact me. When you're with your girlf, you never text me. But now, keep texting and calling me. Why? Want hong me is it? Wtf. Super hate this kind of guys.

We alr apologized to you but you still never reply us. I know we shouldn't had told you last minute that we never go but this few days you also dint contact us. And i alr said, not i don't want go hor. Is seriously very weird if i go. All guys and i'm only the girl. Like totally no link at all. And she can't take off too. We alr said we will make it up for you tmr. But you dint even reply us. If we don't treat you as our good friends, we won't bother to text you and said sorry. If just because of this matter, you don't want to contact us, then i really got nothing else to say. Sorry then. But i still treat you as my good friend and my kor too.

Anyway, those who coming next thursday right, it'll start at 7pm to 12am. You may want to come early also can. I'll be at there at 6pm. (; It's at chevron. At jurong there. Quite near to imm. You can also take 188 from cck and alight when you saw CHEVRON. NO FOOD WILL BE PROVIDED. Go there just to sing, drink and enjoy. So eat your dinner first before coming! (: And for guys who are going, NO SHORTS, BERMUDAS, SINGLETS OR SLIPPERS IN THE KTV. (: And girls, wear anything you like (: HAHA. SEE YA ON NEXT THURSDAY! Anything, text me or call me! (Y)(Y)(Y)

2010-07-01T18:53:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to mirrah! ^^
May your wish come true. And love you la (Y)

Went her mother workplace today. And her mother give her surprise. She get shocked and shy too. Hehh ^^ Then went causeway point eat. Mirrah treat me :) Then went to walk. Tired. So went home. Yawnz, feel like sleeping alr. But going down chevron later. ^^ I guess i only girl ba. Noelle also not going. Sian. Yesterday went wega do paper work. Do quite fast. Then see father they all play pool. Around 11plus, mer's papa sent me and er gugu home. Then met noelle and she came my house. As usual, we talked. (: Chat till 1plus then she went home, and i went to sleep. Alright, update later when i'm free! Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (:

34days, 14days, 8days.

Without you, everything seems meaningless.

2010-06-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

Just reached home. Met noelle at petir then went plaza to eat. Both of us keep eating and eating and eating. Don't know what happened to both of us -.- Then walked home. Fetch bao and went home sleep. Wanted to sleep but brother disturb me. So in the end, dint sleep. Around 7plus, went bath then cab down to wega. Cool, tua got pool table sia! Help ganma do paper work. Write until my hand damn pain. And tmr going down to help again. Then went 163 to eat. Eat again! Haha. Then went 150 to slack. Chit chat alot of stuff. Alas jio play mahjong but in the end, dint play. Wth, nvm. So went home. And i guess sleeping soon.

I'm shocked that the way someone treated ahem and me is totally different. Oh my god. I can't believe it. Tsk tsk.

黄荟萁, 我应该怎样做? Sigh D:

Dearest ganma :
I read the message you write in fb. Thanks for those touching words you had written. I felt happy because at least there's an adult who still concern about me and my everything. Don't worry, my dear ganma. I'm fine. I know i'm weak and easily shed tears for guy but i promise you, i'll be strong now. Moving on with my life and believe that there will be better guy who appreciate me more than him. I'm still young. I need time to heal the wound. Maybe i need months? Years? I don't know. I'm still feeling sad, feeling hurt deep inside my heart. Hais. He seems like moving on with his life. Should i be happy? Hais. Seriously i hate this kind of feeling. It's totally sucks! D: I know you really worry and care about me. This few months, obviously i still will feel sad and still will think about it. Sighs. Anyway, thanks for being there for me. I really really appreciate it alot. Thanks alot. I felt much better after reading the message(: 谢谢你! 我爱死你 le la! ^^ And also thanks for helping me for my birthday :DDD

12 days, 10days.

2010-06-29T13:34:00.002+08:00

I had a bad dream yesterday D: I really don't wish this dream will happened D: Please D: Hais D: But if this dream really happened, then i really don't know what else can i say already D:

Boringggggggg day. Going bath and then meeting scb. At night, going help ganma do thing. So when i'm back home, then update. BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (Y)

Everything changed including you.

11 days, 9days.

2010-06-28T23:59:00.003+08:00

Phew, just got back home from ten mile lan. Tired. Now chatting on the phone with my dearest scb (Y) Damn fucking dulan with one guy. Don't know which idiot give him my number. I told him that i got bf alr but he still keep calling and sms me. Wtf. 25 years old guy still act like small kids. Arghhh~ Forget it. Should ask ppl to act as my bf and scold him like mad. Nb.
Still on the phone with scb (Y) that guy damn irritating Keep calling scb and me too. In the end, scb put him inside conference. I kept quiet and both of them talked. Wtf. Act one english educated only. Then scb talked to him damn gl. Good good. Then in the end, scb hang his call. Wth luh. I never say i want play pranks on you. Be friend? Oh, please no. I don't even want you as my friend. If you call/text me, i shall scold you. Try me. Already not in a good mood and yet still got this irritating guy just pop out. Stupid!

Walked home alone just now. Suddenly think of you. Think of all the memories we had. The times we spent together. The times we slack at cck. The times you send me home. The times we played mahjong together. The times you slack at my house. The times we went town together. The times we ton together.The times we walked to gombak from cck. The times when you accompany me to see doctor when i'm not feeling well. I just miss the times we had together. How i really wish we can be together again. I regretted but everything's too late. You seems like moving on and don't bother me. Why? You really want me to forget you? Sigh, hope we will be together again D: I still love you, ozj D:

Emo-ing nowadays. I might smiling/happy or laughing, is just fake. I already tried my best not to think too much but yet i still think. Hais. Sadded D:

PS: sorry for using alot of vulgar words. Seriously not in a good mood nowadays D: PEOPLE, cheer me up, please! DDDD:

10days, 10days.

2010-06-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

Went bugis/far east plaza with my dearest scb. Went to walk walk cause staying at home damn bored. Haha. Was feeling damn high. Don't know why. Keep laughing to myself and making scb to laugh. Haha. I guess crazy already. Haha. Then went to took bus back panjang. Got one OLD AUNTY came forward and asked us for money cause she want took bus home. So we gave her $1.30. After giving her, we felt weird. So we went to spy her. And she asked ppl for money. Wtf. She asked us again and scb scold her. She deserves it ! Went around and cheat ppl money sia ! Fuck. Consider that me and scb unlucky. We just take it as we giving to begger. Cb lor. Damn pissed off with her. Then we went timah and eat. Ate till full full sia ((: Then went to lan and play l4d2 with ahong and noelle. Haha. Damn funny sia. Then zx they all came. And yeah. Hais......... Alas called me just now. Asked me to go work. Still think whether want work anot. And tmr going spend my time sleeping at home. And at night going tua help ganma.

Still sad D:
Hais.

2010-06-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

Woohoo~ Damn happy cause is my last day of work at there. And don't need to see the f face. Damn pissed off with her today. Talk behind my back but don't dare to talk infront of me. Wtf. When i listened, damn dulan with her. Still complaint to my boss. Please la, just nice when you come down to check on us, there wasn't any customers. And of cause i will stand there do nothing what. Use your common sense please! OLD AUNTY! Ha, whatever la. Can't be bother with her. Cheese pie! Arghhhhhh ~

Went work today. Talking with working friends. Last day of work and i made new friend :) haha. Cool -.- Chit chat till 7plus, then went off. Went home to bath and rest. Met noelle at 163 to eat. Then went 150 to slack. Laykoon, aloy and their friends came find us. Haiyoyo, laykoon ah. Cheer up. You must be strong. Don't shed tears anymore. It's useless. Go talk to her and explain everything clearly. I guess it's misunderstanding nia. If she really love you, she'll believe whatever you said. But if she don't, then forget her. Move on. No point cling on to it. Jiayou. And i'm shocking that when you're sad, you will still come find me. Haha. We're still good friend :) Then chit chat with them. Went ten mile, find zx. Talk to him about something, then walked home. Called emelda. Haiyoyo. Girl, cheer up ok? I also don't know how to help you but i can be your listener :) Don't think too much ba. Hope everything will be alright soon:) And i sleeping soon. Tireddddddd :/ And yeah, tmr going town with dearest :)

Patch? Hais, hope so D:

9days, 11days.

2010-06-26T20:19:00.000+08:00

So tireddddddddddddddddd~ Hais.
Just came back from not long ago. Mummy went buy food for me to eat. Waiting for her to come back. Will be sleeping after i eat ba. Cause i'm sooooooo tired :/ Recently, bad thing happened. Hais D: Hope everything will be alright. And finally, tmr is the last day of work. Woohoo, happy. Cause i don't need to see that OLD AUNTY face already. Damn fucked up with her today. Argh!~ I prefer working at robinsons than there! After tmr, jobless again :/ Hais. This coming monday, i plan to stay at home and rest. Tuesday-town with dearest. Wednesday-rot at home. Thursday-seoul garden with friends. Friday&Saturday-celebrating zx birthday. Sunday-rest. Ha, that's how i plan for this coming week. Alright, my bill burst again. Haiyoooooo. Keep burst de sia. I think i using prepaid card soon. :/ Alright, sleeping soon. Yawnzzzzzz.
Anyway, i'll be celebrating my birthday. Damn looking forward to it. And those who never/haven't reply my message, hope your reply me soon! :/ Anyway, no food will be provided. So eat your dinner first before you come. Haha!

8days, 12days.

2010-06-25T21:11:00.002+08:00

Yesterday wanted to dye my hair but last minutes, mer called and asked want go chevrons. So went lor. Waiting for noelle to reach petir lrt, then took cab to petir and fetch her. Reach there, told myself to enjoy and not to think about any unhappy stuff. I did laugh happily eh ^^ Gan ma was there first. Then went into the room to talk, sing and drink. After that, played photo hunt with noelle. Haha. Then veron came. Damn long dint saw her and she said i slim down -.- I still think i'm fat! :/ Then went back to the room, gan ma talked to me. As usual, talked about the unhappy stuff. Hais. Even if she dint talked to me, i still felt sad. Still will go think. Hais. But anyway, thank for consoling me. I'm alright (: And she asked me to help her with the sintua stuff -.- Then brother were doing some funny moves and made us laugh like MAD! Hahahahah! Then went timah to eat. Talk alot of rubbish. Haha. Then gan papa sent us home. Thanks (: Reach home around 2plus, text friends and fall asleep. Tired sia.

Today, rain so heavily in the morning eh! Make me don't feel like working. But no choice, had to go. Was late by half an hour? Ha, i also don't care. Did nothing much. Talked to my partner alot of stuff. Both of us keep talking sia. Talk until i off work. Haha. YES! Two more days and i don't need work there already. Woohoo~ Then took bus home. Tired. :/ Now, i waiting for noelle to help me dye hair :D

7 days, 13 days.

2010-06-24T20:24:00.003+08:00

That's my lover and me! Haha. I don't know why i really love this picture alot. Lols. Maybe because tina hold my right hand make me felt that she will be there for me whenever i need? Lols, gan gong yi sia! Haha. Ok, i'm crazy -.- Thanks for being there for me! Meet up soon ok? And goodluck to your O level. Sudy hard! After O, we shall go out! And anything feel free to tell me! I'll be there for you too.(: Tina Tan Li Ling!♥

Went work today. Did nothing much. As usual, talk to working mates. And i damn pissed off with one of the staff there. The story goes like this ... Got two promoter from other counter walk to my counter and played with the games. I was doing my job, helping to fix the hotwheels track. I dint know two of them came until i saw them. And the staff from toys department came down to check the stock. She saw two promoter from other counter came and played. She asked them to go back to their counter. Then she talk to my partner. Saying that if i'm here, then they will come. Wtf? Is none of my business and i dint even ask them to come ok? Is they ownself walked to my counter! I never even left my counter. Unless i want to go toilet la. And she even asked my partner if any one of my friends or the promoter there got come find me talk anot. Please la, i talk to them also got wrong mehs? And also not alot of customers everyday. The sales also not really good lor. You're just an assistance nia Also not the manager or what. Don't talk behind my back ok, OLD AUNTY! Bear with it for three more days and i don't need to see your f face. Luckily my partner told me what she asked him. Alright, seriously i not going to bother about that staff. Want complaint about me, go ahead. And i won't work at that department stores anymore! Went for lunch time. Ate mac and went centrepoint find vera. She working there(: Chit chat with her then went back. And times passed very fast. Soon, time to off work. Wanted to go in and find jeffrey to talked. But then i very tired. Took bus home. Went fajar and buy hair dye. Haha. Noelle coming my house later and help me. Thanks ah! (: I guess today will sleep early. And ZHIXIAN say maybe he will come find me tmr. Hope he will! But i know he won't come de la. And i want earn more money so that i can buy GUCCI or LV bag!! Haha, just being random! ^^

Hais, still feel sad and moody while working today.
Maybe i too miss you ba.
Hope you're doing well.
Hope we still can be together again.
I got alot of thing i want to tell you.
I don't want to be friend with you.
I just want you as my BOYFRIEND!
I'm seriously,
Hais.
:((((((((((((

2010-06-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday dint went to work. Damn freaking tired. Zj morning call me at 9 but still no use. Continued to sleep till 2plus to 3plus then woke up. Suppose to go east coast with mirrah but in the end, dint went. Damn pissed off with her. Said meet 5plus, but in the end let me waited for her half an hour or more. Text her, no reply. Called her, never answer Damn pissed off. Then emelda text me, and i went to find her at cck. Accompany her till 7plus then i went sunshine place to find noelle. Accompany her to eat dinner. Then zh came. Talked with him till noelle end work. Then went back panjang meet zx to slack. Laykoon join us too. Slack till half way, saw gan ma. Asked me to go up ah ma house. Went up, chat with gan ma, mervyn and ah ma. Thanks mervyn ^^ After that, went to find them again. Slack till 12plus, then went home. Tired.

Today, damn lazy to work. But in the end, no choice, had to go :/ Work full shift today. Tiring. From morning until i end work, i felt damn cold. The air con in OG is not really that cold. Maybe falling sick soon? Hais. Spend my time talking with working mates/playing games with small kids. Lols. Then noelle and wx came fetch me. Thanks ^^ went bangkit and eat. Then went petir to slack awhile. Took lrt home. Shag, tmr morning shift :/ Still tireddddddd~

2010-06-22T06:59:00.010+08:00

Just reach home. Damn tireddddddddd. Still got work later on, sure tired die :/ Hope there will be someone fetching me after work later. And i hope is YOU! Which is impossible. Pray hard then. Went cck to meet emelda. Slack, chit chat. And saw zen. Then sebas came. Slack till 7plus, went to find zx. Slack with him awhile then went back to slack with emelda and sebas. Lol. Around 9plus, went back to panjang meet noelle. Then went bangkit to eat with noelle and wx. Waited for zx to come then went for mahjong. Skip skip skip. Don't feel like explaining -.- Then accompany zx to go home take thingy and went to qr house while i meet noelle for breakfast. Tired, update later.

And someone going to buy LV bag for me! Haha, don't know is it true anot, but i hope so! ((:

Dearest Cousin, cheer up! You still have me. Like what i said, i'll always be there for you. Anything feel free to call me or tell me. Even though i don't really know what had happened and i also can't help much, but i'll still be there for you. ^^ Meet up soon! And i'm fortunate to have you as my cousin and also be there for me. Thanks alot too! Appreciate it! Love die you la! PEHANNGEE!

Sigh, what to do now? I really don't know. Why i can't forget you? Why are you still in my heat? Why i love you so much? Why? You seems like don't bother me anymore. Why? Sighs, less than two months, you are going for ns :( Sighs, you seriously want me to forget you? I might be laughing happily sometimes and show that i don't bother, but i'm just pretending! I'm still sad, still feel hurt, still love you, still waiting, still hope we can be together. But i guess no. Sighs. You already give up this relationship which i really felt disappointed. Sighs, i really don't know. Can you tell me what should i do? Wait or don't wait? :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

2010-06-21T16:23:00.002+08:00

Boringgggggggggggggggggggggggg day ! ):

I'm off today but did nothing. Suppose to go swimming with friends but in the end cancel. :/ So stay at home and rot! Emelda called me and we chatted on the phone. And meeting her later at cck to slack. Tmr start to work morning shift. Shag. Have to wake up damn early which i don't want -.- Hahaha, and zx called me just now. Soooooo random okay? Haha. Chat with him awhile and i need to go prepare and go meet emelda already. (: Update later when i'm freeeeeeeeee! (Y)

2010-06-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

Continued what happen on friday.

Friday, Was updating my blog until half wayyyyyyyy and wx called. So fast. Went to bath quickly and went down to find him. Went teck whye and visit friends. slack awhile at house then went to cck find tina. They were BBQ-ing at sebas's house downstairs. Reach there, lingsheng made me laugh. Funny lah he. Then told tina what had happened. Hais. Then chit chat with them. And i accidentally dropped sebas's iphone. :/ sorry. Then went to meet emelda at lot. Slack with her awhile then went back panjang meet noelle. Slack with her at 106. After that, walked home. Tired. Felt sad.

Saturday, woke up at 11plus. Went to prepare and off to work. Reach workplace, damn shag. Kept talking with my working mates. And jeffrey treat me eat happy meal cause he know i'm not in a good mood. Thanks ah! After work, friend came to fetch me and went to alas's gf house played mahjong. And i lose. Nevermind. Played till 3plus, walked home alone. Kept thinking about unhappy stuff and yes, tears flowing out. Called akira to chat. Thanks anyway. Reach home, text with friend and went to sleep at around 5plus. Still feel sad.

Today, woke up same timing. Went to prepare and off to work. Damn tired but no choice, still have to go. Was late by a few minutes. Next week working morning shift. Must wake up damn early :O Talked with working mates again. Then went for break time. Saw jeffrey and he accompanied me even though his break time ended. Thanks friend! Went to walk at centrepoint. Then i buy one packet of crackers and one bottle of drink. That's my meal for today. Dint really have appetite this few days. Dint really ate. Hais. After that, went back to work again. Damn bored. Soon, time passed. And friend fetch me to cck because meeting noelle and wilson. Reach cck, went to find noelle, zx they all. Chit chat with zx. Then went off to meet wilson. Slack with him awhile then went home. Tired. And luckily tmr off. Dont know where to go. Mood still bad.

Anyway, thanks to those friends who is there for me when i need and also concern about me & him r/s. And also cheer me up when i'm sad. Anngee, Jeffrey, Tina, Lingsheng, Akira, Vera, Jovin, Vanessa, Zhixian and etc. Thanks.

Noelle Ng, 黄荟萁. My dearest siaocharbo. Thanks for always be there when i need. Thanks for listening to my problems everytime. Thanks for cheering me up when i'm sad. Thanks for those advices. Thanks for helping me whenever i need help. Thanks for accompany me to slack/eat and chit chat. Thanks for accompany/find me when i'm working till i off work. Thanks for accompany me to go down cck sometimes even though you don't like. Thanks for everything you had done for me. I really appreciate it alot, alot. You're just like my sister and of cause my good-est friend! If you need help, call me. I willing to be your listener too. I love you many many many la. And i know what should i do already. ♥♥♥

Emelda. My good friend. You might not know that i wrote all this stuff in my blog. But i still want to thank you. Thanks for being there for me. Cheering me up when i'm sad. Accompany me to talk on the phone when i'm bored. Listen to my problems. I really appreciate it alot. I enjoy playing photo hunt with you^^ We shall play it whenever we meet up ok? Anything, feel free to call me. I'll be there for you ♥♥

I'm just pretending to be happy but deep down my heart, i still felt sad and hurt. Sigh. Happy that i saw you just now, but sad that everything ended. I will try since you already move on but i still ♥ you alot.

♥

2010-06-18T15:08:00.005+08:00

Alright. My mr right had gone. Hais hais hais ~ Everything ended. Maybe we don't even meant to be together? Maybe we only can be friend? Hais. Yea, had been feeling sad since yesterday. Thanks to those who cheer me up but still failed. Especially noelle. I still miss and love you alot. Believe it anot, up to you. Nevermind. If we are meant to be together, fate will bring us back.

Finally had a job, but it only work for two weeks. Better than nothing. Working at OG, very slack. No ppl de. Know new friends. But i still miss the times working at robinsons with XINYI , JULIAN , MICHELLE and SHEENA. Hais. Yesterday during break time, went to plaza sing walk walk. And i saw vera and her bf! Shocking to see her there. She become more pretty and her hair damn long alr. Miss her. Might be working with her after this job. Dint went to work today as i told boss i'm not feeling well. Will be going out soon. Maybe going find tina. Then go meet emelda. Hais. Mahjong tmr and sunday? Waiting for ppl to confirm with me. Clubbbing on 24? Don't know should i go. Friend jio me go. Might ask emelda to join me. And i'm off on monday. Where can i go? Noelle might be working. Hais. Birthday next month? Where can i go? Somemore is on the weekdays where everyone is busy studying and working. Hais. Alirght, stop here. Update later. Cause i'm going out now ! (Y) Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2010-06-12T13:18:00.002+08:00

Fucking pissed off just now. For no reason, mother woke me up. Fuck. This is not the first time, more than first time ok? She gave me attitude, and i gave her mine. Wtf. Don't even want to bother her. I'm not going home tonight anyway. And now she start to talk to me. Ask me to help her with her phone -.-

Thursday, did nothing much. Went to meet with anngee and noelle at lot one to eat sushi. Once a week/month, we met up. (: Both of them listened to my problems. Thanks! They went off first then i went to meet emelda. Chit chat with her. And boy came with jacky. Dint really talked much to him. Noelle came back and find me. Chit chat with her, told her about my problems. Then she left me alone with boy to talk. Hais, skip skip skip. Then boy walked away first, then noelle accompany me. Yeah, feeling down again. Went back to panjang to meet up with zx. In lrt, don't know what else can i do/say. All i knew was cried. Hais. Thanks noelle ah. Then went to 163 and ate. After that, boy, zh and jacky came. Talked, slack. Then went to slack. I was otf with emelda then boy came. And we talked. Skip skip skip. In the end, we were okay. Walked noelle home first then they walked me to traffic light and i walked home myself. Reach home, text awhile and sleep. Tired.

Yesterday being woke up by mother again. Hais, nevermind. Called scb and woke up her too. Psps :/ Then met her go plaza and walk walk. And slack with her awhile, then went home to bath and prepared to go out. Met boy, zx and zh at far east plaza. Then went to walk while waiting for rst and jack to come. After they came, went to eat. Then walked around orchard. Saw jiani ^^ Then went to plaza sing, then took bus back to panjang. Went 103 and slack. Walked to bus interchange to meet up with noelle. Went 163 to eat, chit chat and slack. Then went to boy house downstair meet zx and slack. After that, boy came too. Slack awhile, went took cab home. And the stupid taxi driver drove soooooooo slow. And wasted my money. Should had walked home. F la. Reached home, text with boy and noelle jiu fall asleep le. Tiring dayyy but i'm still happy ^^

Today might be meeting boy later around evening. So, update later. (:

Thank god, everything is alright now between me & boy.

2010-06-09T23:17:00.000+08:00

And yeah. NOELLE had save me just now! Thanks scb! Suppose to have dinner with her alone but suddenly her father asked her to eat dinner too. So joined them for dinner. After that, went plaza toilet. Saw weiling kor and his family. Damn long never saw them especially yoshi and yuki! They had forgotten me alr. Sadded :/ Nevermind. Then weilin kor intro job to me but i can't work cause must be 18years old and above. Jitao sad :/ Guess will ask anngee to work ba. Then went 150 slack. As usual, sit there and chit chat. And noelle ask me a question. I guess i should ask boy too. LOL! Then walked home. Tmr meeting mirrah first then meet emelda to swim.

2010-06-09T17:58:00.005+08:00

Yesterday whole day dint went out. Stay at home rot. Damn bored :/ At night, had family chat. Yea, it's time for me to start working and not rotting at home. Chat awhile then went to sleep already. Don't know why so tired :/ Text with boy and wilson then fall asleep.

Today woke up at 2plus cause mother's friend woke me up. If not, i can continue to sleep. Shocking that i slept till too late ^^ Mother asked me to help her make sister sleep and i gave her my attitude. Because i hate ppl who came to wake me up when i'm sleeping :/ Then mother asked me is it i quarrel with boy that's why gave her attitude? LOL! Damn shocking she will asked that. And i told her no, she don't believed it. Then her business alr. I guess today won't be going anywhere. Might be staying at home and rot again. Hais, boringgggggggg. I want go out, but where can i go? :/

NOELLE, SAVE ME!

2010-06-08T18:41:00.007+08:00

Yesterday was a sad day and damn fucking no mood ! :/ hais.
Met emelda at lot one first. Went arcade and played photo hunt with her. Damn long never played with her(: Then she told me about her stuff and i just listened. After that, went smoking area cause she want smoke. Smoke till half way got caught. -.- Then went back to her house downstair and slack. Then met zh at lot for dinner. Ate mos burger. Then vivian joined us. Was talking all the way. Then went back her house slack while zh went arcade. I was damn pissed off by someone. Fuck it man! Wtf, hate it when other ppl said about my love one. Then went back lot one, find zh. After that, father called and asked me go home, so i went home. Talked with him for something. Then after that, i went out again. Thought of meeting boy at cck but in the end last minute he went drink with brother. Hais, so went cck to meet zh. On the way to cck, something bad happen. And ya, i cried in the lrt :/ Reached cck, saw zh and i cried badly. He was there to console me. Keep telling me don't cry, don't cry. Thanks anyway! Then met wilson and went to void deck to slack, chit chat and drink. I'm damn lousy in drinking :/ I drink less than half can, i was already giddy. Hais. Then zh came joined us. Talked awhile, went back to 302 to relax. Went toilet and vomit. After that, noelle called and two of them followed me back to panjang to meet noelle. Went 103 to eat and slack too. Then sent noelle home. Three of us went to wait for boy, zx and jack to come back. They reached already, boy were totally drunk :/ hais. Then me and zx were sitting at the bustop, chatting problems. After that, zh and jack came too. Chat awhile, sent boy home first then went to 103 again with zh, wilson and zx. Sit there chat. Then went ten mile to play L4D2. And again, i played till vomit. Wtf. Then chat with anngee on fb. Wtf, knew something damn fucking disappointed. Forget it. Then walked to petir with zx while zh and wilson went home. Reached home, head damn pain. Still feeling uncomfortable, feel like vomiting again. :/ then went to sleep. Anyway, thank wilson, zh, noelle, zx and jack.

Slept till 4plus in the afternoon and woke up. Head still pain. Watched tv. Sms with noelle. Maybe meeting her later? I don't know? Right now, don't have any appetite to eat even though i'm hungry. Don't know why :/

胡至杰, i really don't know what to say now. I only know i really love you deeply, damn deeply. I never love a guy so deep before, i swear. I'm shocked that you sent that message to me yesterday. Yes, i'm deeply hurt. At first, i really don't know what else can i say because in my mind, i really don't want end this relationship. Zh were there to advice me. Kept asking me to think properly before i reply you. I thought through and i just replied you 'ok'. Cause i really don't know what can i replied. In the end, you replied me a very long message. Whatever you said in the message, is true. Maybe i really never give you freedom? Maybe i'm too used to having you by me side? And yes. It's my fault not to accompany you to see doctor when you having sore eyes. I know i should had accompany you. I appreciate you for accompany me to see doctor when i having sore eyes. Sorry and thanks. That time i asked for break up was because i felt that you have neglected me. Maybe to you, you won't feel it. And i never told wx about us was because he will know without i telling him. And now, he already know that i had bf. This few days, my mood wasn't good. You did asked me what happened and i dint told you was because i want to tell you face to face. But in the end, we dint meet. Hais. I know you're a guy who don't like to be controlled. You know why i don't like you to play mahjong or don't like you to go club all that, because i'm scared! I know i should trust you but i really don't know why i still don't like you to go. Hais, i'm scared of losing you, my dear :/ I hope you understand how i feel. And i won't be controlling you anymore. You want freedom, i give you. I really cherish this relationship alot. Seriously. Yesterday i saw you totally drunk, i really wanted to help you. But i don't know why i dint walked to you and helped. Saw you being drunk till like that and yet i can't helped out, i felt damn disappointed in myself. I'm not a good girlf. I really don't bear to lose you. I wrote in my fb that i won't give up this relationship? I really hope you won't give up too. When the first day i known you, you have been treating me good. Thanks. Thanks for treating me good all this while. I appreciate it. Sorry for giving you my attitude all this while. I wrote all this in my blog, just want to let you know i love you and how i feel. I really hope we can last long. I promise i'll wait for you after your ns. I know 2years is very long, but i'll wait. I promise. I hope you won't give up on me and this relationship too. 胡至杰, 我真的爱你! Hais :/

2010-06-06T23:59:00.002+08:00

I'm back !

Short post for today!
Today did nothing much. Suppose to go eat with gan ma they all in the morning, but then i overslept and damn lazy too :/ Went to sleep in the afternoon and woke up at around 7pm. Then went to bath and went plaza with mother. Then met noelle at panjang to eat dinner. Suppose to meet her at cck but ... Dont wish to say. After that, went to 150 slack. Wanted to meet boy but don't know why in the end never met. So walked home alone. Reached home, played with sister and going to sleep soon. Might be talking to emelda otf later on. Night!
Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to gan ma and her son, alson!

2010-06-06T13:40:00.002+08:00

Pictures taken at ahming's wedding on friday (:

Update later when i'm free. Just post some pictures first (:

2010-06-05T23:59:00.001+08:00

Ok, my mood now is damn FUCKING MOODY! :/ hais!~

Thursday night, met noelle at cck then went to chevron to meet anngee they all. Dint really enjoyed myself there .... hais. Then played game with cousin. After that, went anngee's house and ton. Reached there, wanted to sleep, but can't slept. Moodless :/ On the phone with emelda. Heart to heart chat with anngee and noelle. That's how i spent my night.

Friday morning, three of us dint slept the whole night. Then went to bathed and prepared. Went to gan ma house first then went to ah ming house. Reach there, helped out. Skip skip skip ~ Ate noodles at ah ming house. After that, went to noelle house and rest. Left my stuff at her house. Went plaza and ate jack's place! Chit chat with them, went earthdoll to buy clothes. After that, went batok to buy disc and went back anngee house to changed. So tireddddddd~ Then took cab to panjang cc. Reach there, helped out. Wearing high heels damn difficult to walk. So took it off and helped them do stuff. Skip skip skip ~ Nothing to do, then we went to backstage and rest. Three of us fall asleep. Damn freaking tired. Around 6plus, woke up. Went outside and helped out again. And i saw my primary school friend. Shocking to see him! Then took some pictures, will upload soon ba. After that, eat a few dishes and three of us went off first. Damn shag and tired. Accompanied anngee to take cab then went back noelle house to rest first. Then went cck meet boy, zx and jacky. Reached there, damn damn tired. After that, slack with them awhile and i went home. Reached home, bathed and went to sleep. Anyway, congrats ahming! (:

Today, mother woke me up at around 2plus. Wth. If not i can slept longer :/ Ate my breakfast/lunch. Around 3plus, went back to sleep. And woke up at around 7plus, nearly 8. After that, went to bath and met noelle at 163 to eat. Accompanied her cause she not in a good mood :/ Cheer up, scb! Then went 150 to slack. Zh came find us. After that, boy and zx came too. Slack awhile with them then went to meet with laykoon and aloy. Wanted to follow boy they all to play lan at ten mile but don't know why today i don't feel like playing :/ Slack with laykoon at 150 again. After that, sent her home then i walked home alone cause sister finding me and father kb. So, walked home alone. When walking home alone, thought of the past, secondary life and etc :/ hais. Everything changed :( Reached home, guess what? Mother was playing mahjong! Damn fucking pissed off! If not, i can go find boy they all lor. Hais. And i'm hungry now!

And 胡至杰, i dare to write your name in my fb and also in my blog is because I LOVE YOU! Understand?

2010-06-02T21:19:00.003+08:00

Alright ! I'm damn boreddddddd now ~ Text friends and ask what do they think love means? Haha. Check out their answers below ^^

Praba : Hahas love means yingying & praba(: no need to be couples to fet love=)

Vanessa : Love is the feeling that makes you feel like you're floating ! :3 hehheh .

Anngee : Love for me, is just a game. A game that either one that fallen more deep den de other is the loser. Haha . That my love.

Jovin : Love uh ? Means uhh .. Feeling happy fhor him when he's happy, when seeing him sad, i'll be sad, heart broken ? And uh , i will think of him every sec.

Vera : Haha. I think that love there is no explanation de. Love is love:)

Sheena : Haha i guess you are really bored. To me, love can't be explain.

Jovin lua : Love means both party must put it effort. Understanding. Mutual trust between each other. Give in to each other. Care and concern for each other :)

Jason : Love is happiness shared between each other :) haha

Syamel : For me love means romance haha. its about being close to the person who i love. spending my time with that person is really important.

Razli : Love cant be describe

Liqing : Love is sacrificing anything for them. No matters what others talk about their flaws, it doesn't even matters you. (:

Jazreel : Love? Has many definitions. To me, love is being happy.

Qianru : Hahahahahahaha. Love means trust, companionship, doing more than what you would for that someone (:

Weisian : Err. You must know wad the other thinking and err ... Give in? Hmm.

Vivien : Hi colin here vivien bf. I explain to you in my own words. love is selfish, love ned both party to give in to each other so it can last long. Love is also a thing that can give you motivate and courage to do some stuff (:

Sakinah : Love is what everyone need, even though they deny it (:

Noelle : Love is ... Let me think Love is something that everyone need. Love can be sweet but it will also hurt much.

Wilson : Love is when you see someone. your heart starts pumping faster. Love is about giving in to your love one.

Jun Yang : For my opinion i feel that love is to care for the oher half no matter wat happen. And also must understand each other and in time must give and forget wat the other had done wrong :)

Boyf : Lolx..I also not sure lei..I don't think love have a definition lei..

Haha, that's all i guess!~ Yeah. It's true that love has many definition. But to me, love don't need to explain (:

My eyes still swollen. Haiyo~ I don't think it'll be okay by this friday lor. Hais. Sadded ): Tmr will be going anngee house and ton. Then friday morning need go gan ma house first then go ah ming house. Will be damn tired, i guess. Today did nothing much. Went to plaza with noelle to buy her dress for this friday morning. The dress is still acceptable ba.. Lols.

And i hate SMOKERS! Ps, i know i'm damn random =/ but just suddenly hate it? So please don't smoke infront of me especially YOU YOU YOU!~ Bleh. Hahahahahahah~

Oh ya! I saw Jovin today at plaza! Sooooooo damn miss her! Hahaha. Somemore we were chatting on fb yesterday and today i met her. Cool ^^ I will be sleeping quite late today ba. Cause mummy playing mahjong -.- hais, nowadays relationship is sooooo complicated. Couples are breaking up. Trying to help them to be back tgt but it not working. Hais ): Skip skip skip ~ Just now was texting with JASON GAN ;D haha, damn miss him lor. I guess he's happy now with ahem ba? Hahahhah. Must meet up with him soon ;DDDDD

Currently texting with jovin meimei. Haiyo, mei ah. Move on with your life. No point cling on to it when its already useless. Try to forget him. And don't because of love then do silly thingy hor. Your can't be together but your still can be good friends ma. (: Cheer up alright? The next time i see you, i must hear that you tell me you alr forget him le, okay? ^^ JYJY! Anything tell me ok? And meet up soonnnnnn ;D Loves!~

I'm waiting for OZJ to text meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!~ Boreddddddddddd -,-

2010-06-01T21:54:00.002+08:00

No more sore eyes but eyes still swollen. I guess is infection ba. Plus nowadays the weather is hot ? Lol -.- Oh ya ! This friday gonna help ah ming kor's wedding. Damn looking forward to it. Somemore we going be bride's sister! Cool :) Haha Hope that my eyes recover by this friday. pray hard ! But even if my eyes still not okay, i still will go help. But meanwhile, this few days stay at home and rest (:

Today noelle woke me up. Called me in the morning while i'm still sleeping -.- SCB ! Then mummy went buy food for us to eat. After that, went back to sleep. Ask scb to called me around 4.30pm then woke up and went to bathed. Met her at petir. Then went to plaza to eat kfc. Then boy came to find us. Eat, chit chat and walked walked. After that, boy walked us to the traffic light then he went home. Walked home with noelle. Talked and slack with her. After that, she went off. Should be coming back to my house again ba.

Oh ya ! Qi ai de biao jie is back from genting ! Will see her on friday ! Gonna have a heart to heart talk with her again ! Loves ~ (:

Happy 2 month, OZJ! (: So fast jiu our second month le. Happy ^^ In this 2 month, alot of thing happen but nevertheless, i still love you. Sorry for giving my attitude to you. And sorry for what had happened on 29 may. Shouldn't had said all those thing to you. Damn regretted. But luckily i took back all the words i said. I promised i won't said that words again. And hope you won't said too. Now then i know you're important to me. I can't bear to lose you. Haha. Hope we can last long. I love you, OZJ (:

2010-05-31T22:28:00.002+08:00

Alright, today will be a short post cause need to put medicine and go sleep already ^^

Yesterday went to see doctor. Boy accompanied me. The doctor said if by today is not improving then need go back and see again. And if cannot, need go hospital. Cause the eyes is very important to us. Agreed with what the doctor said. ^^ After that, boy sent me home. Happy ^^ Cause it've been a long time since he sent me home =/ Then reached home, went to rest. Then accompanied mummy to ten mile and eat. Then went home. And sleep. Eyes too pain already.

Today slept till around 1plus then woke up. Don't know why felt so tired. Eyes don't seem to be improving. It's still swollen. Hais ): Then mummy went out to buy things. Look after sister and brother. Then played with sister awhile, and guess what. She said vulgar word -.- freaking shocking sia. Haha. Then mummy came home already. Went to bathed, then went boy house to find him. Reached there, he was watching his show. -.- then slack until 8plus, went plaza find mummy. Boy walked with me to plaza then he went off alr (: Ate sushi for dinner. Haha. Then went to buy some herbal drink. Took cab home. And i guess i'm sleeping soon. Goodnight. (:

And yeah, I love tmr! (: <3333333

2010-05-29T16:27:00.002+08:00

ARGHHHHHH~! Damn fucking hate my eyes now! It's damn pain! And now my another eyes is red too! Wth. Oops, sorry for scolding vuglar. :/ but it's damn pain ): Hais. Now my eyes is more swollen -.-

Yesterday went cck with mother and sister. After that, met emelda, Went up to arcade to play photo hunt. (: After that, went 302 to meet noelle and had dinner. Saw rst and he followed us too. Chit chat and slack at 302. Then went back to lot one to meet boy and his bro. Then went up to arcade. Play game again. Slack awhile, then went back home with noelle. Reached home, mother suddenly said she playing mahjong again. Then something bad happened. Skip skip skip~ Don't wish to say anyway. By the way, thanks noelle, emelda and zx for being there for me, console me. Then text with boy awhile jiu fall asleep. Tired.

Today, woke up at 11am then went to bath. Went polyclinic with mother, in the end close. Wth. So we headed to lot one. Went to eat then walk walk. Went back to petir to find daddy. And met up with noelle, accompany her to eat. Then took cab home. Damn tired. Wanted to sleep, but mother not a home. Don't know where to go. I guess today going to stay at home ba.

2010-05-28T13:34:00.005+08:00

Finally have time to update my blog already.(:

Nowadays had been staying at home due to sore eyes. It's painful luh): hope i recover soon! -.- And yeah, finally met up with my dearest cousin! She came panjang & find me. Then ton at my house. Had heart to heart talk with her. And next week we going to eat sushi if my eyes recover.(: Even though i just saw her few days ago but i still miss her. haha! Meet up again, dearest cousin ok? (:

Alright, received my phone bill for last month. And it's BURST like hell! Dint know that it will cost sooooooo much. Maybe because i kept using internet): Die liao la. Hope my eyes recover fast so that i can find job and pay my bill!

Yesterday, mother woke me up for no reason. Then called noelle asked her to come over my house and went to eat breakfast together. Bring brother to school then went home and bath. Went to fajar to eat with mother and noelle. After eating, went back home and slack with noelle. Then she went for work and i went to sleep. After awhile, mother woke me up again. Cause she want play mahjong. Called boy and asked. Skip skip skip~ Don't feel like explaining what happened. Then in the end, boy came. Watched tv while waiting for mother's friends to come. In the end, waited for two hours, mother friend's last mintue called and say don't want played. Wtf. After that, boy went cck to find his brother. Went to bathed first then met noelle at fajar mac to eat & slack. Mother followed me too -.- Then went back home. Noelle helped me put eye drop before she went home. Thanks scb! (: Then went to bed and slept. That's all.

Today, mother woke me up again -.- She also woke boy up. Somemore she called boy -.- Then i can't sleep. Nothing much today. Maybe later going cck to find noelle & eat after her work ba. My eyes still pain. Going polyclinic to see tmr. Will update later if i'm free & also have wireless!

And thanks SCB ( noelle ) ! Thanks for being there when i need! Appreciate it alot! Thanks! If you got any problems, feel free to tell me! 24/7 for you! Love you alots! (: And also not forgotten my qi ai de biao jie ( anngee ) Even though we seldom meet, but you're still my dearest cousin ! Ai si ni men la. (:

Hais. Dint see boy for three days and felt that he changed to another person.
No longer the zj i knew in the first place.
Our r/s started to drift apart.
We're not close as how we are used to be the last time
Now i can't feel the love from you anymore?
You may think i'm thinking too much.
But this is what i felt.
Boy, can we go back to the past like how we used to be?
I really don't want to give up this r/s.
And also don't want to lose you too.
Hais, i love you.

2010-05-22T02:39:00.002+08:00

Currently now at cini lan with zh, jack & rst. Just played L4D2 with them. Quite fun but then played until my head pain & i vomit ): hais. anyway, damn miss anngee ( wo de darling biao jie ) ! hope to meet up with her soon. Maybe later meeting boy & his bro. Okay, gtg. Update next time when i'm free.

2010-04-27T23:00:00.002+08:00

Alright, dint had the time to update my blog. I know it had dead. Haha. Now i had the time to update because i'm at cousin house. Anyway, quite a long time dint saw my cousin. Miss her alot. (: She forever my best cousin even though we seldom meet up nowadays.

This whole month, i had been spending my time with boy or noelle. Everyday met him then went down to cck to slack. I'm glad that i found him and got the chance to be with him. (: I promise i won't leave him(: & also met up with noelle for dinner & slack. Good friend!(:

Haha, alright. This month, went to work with noelle at expo. Only four days. Enjoy working there because the people there treat both us good sia. Got free yogurt & ice cream to eat. & pork , beef & alot more. & also free wine to drink. Haha. Ate till our stomach became big. -.- although it's over, i still miss working with them! haha(:

Sian. Nowadays keep rotting at home. If never meet boy, then will rot at home. Somemore boy going army soon. More bored lor. hais. But i still have younger sister to play with. hah(:

Anyway, i SUPERRR MISS TINA TAN! Must meet up soon hor! Damn miss the times with her sia! ):

Alright, update later if i'm free! (:

2010-04-10T01:39:00.002+08:00

Hello !! =)) Noelle here .

Posting at her blog , hehe !

she didnt even know that i go her blog & post .

But think later she will knew it -.- .. Hmm ,

charbo ah charbo ! bu yao xiang tai duo ah sometime :)

No matter what those people that really dote you is caring & protecting you, just sometime you dont know only :)

Jiayou .. hmm , stop here .. Byebye :D

2010-03-29T21:05:00.004+08:00

All this pictures taken at anngee's chalet last tuesday. And don't misunderstood. The one who kissed me is my brother, not my bf. (: Anyway, happy belated birthday to her! (: And it's the first time i see her drunk. & talking rubbish & also said those touching words. Haha. And because of that stupid chalet,my face grow alot of pimples now. Cause of the stupid dirty pillow. I wont go to that chalet anymore. -.-

Nowadays keep ton here & ton there. Hais, my face confirm full of pimples liao. have to sleep very early already.

& i'm very sorry. i dont meant the break the promise. hope we still can remain us goodfriends. i felt very guilty. sorry):

2010-03-23T16:42:00.002+08:00

Hey!
Currently now at bukit batok, home team chalet. Anngee celebrate her 18 birthday here(: i'm damn boredddddddd. Now anngee& noelle not around cause they went out to collect stuffs. Then i'm alone with my brother & his friends. Siannnnn. Well, hope later will be fun & lot & lot ppl will come. haha. Gtg, update later when i'm freeeeeeeeeeeeeee ;D

2010-03-14T02:46:00.003+08:00

PICTURES!~ :D

2010-03-14T01:30:00.002+08:00

Currently now at anngee house (: just now went to qr's friend the chalet at pasir ris. damn lot of people. then went to ehub & walk walk. then went back to the chalet & find anngee they all. after that, went to roadside and wait for anngee's friend to drive us back to anngee's house for majong. ;D going town later with laykoon and aloy. anyway, damn miss him now ):

2010-03-08T01:52:00.002+08:00

Yoyoyo~

Nowadays very busy & lazy to update my blog. Haha. Last week & last last week, play majong with noelle & noelle's friend. This week, i guess stay at home & be good girl ba. Suddenly i damn miss PEH ANNGEE. Damn long never see her liao. Hope to see her soon. This month, quite busy. laykoon have chalet on 27 to 29 march. Going to ton & have fun.(: Alright, if i still can't get into the course i want in ite, then forget it. i won't be studying this whole year & will be working. And cheryl accompany me! Thanks boyf! love ya! <33 haha. Anyway, i'm waiting for jy to come back for thailand. because he promise to treat me eat NEW YORK NEW YORK. HAHA. Hope he faster come back(:

Alright, stop here. Bye (;

Omg, i think i really fall in love with you.

2010-02-16T20:13:00.003+08:00

Hey people!

Damn freaking long never update my blog. Damn busy & tired. Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOUR! ;DD

Hmm, nowadays keep rotting at home & looking after my precious brother! Sian, without mother at home, i can't really go out. I can only go out when he's asleep. Meet laykoon, aloy & terr during midnight. Slack, eat & talk. HAHA.

Anyway, this year new year totally suck! Last year, at least relatives will come for dinner & celebrate new year together. But this year, not really all the relatives came. It's kinda sad laaa~ But nevermind, hope next year will be better ;D

Sunday, went ahma house. Slack all the way then went to another grandma house to bainian. Slack there until 5plus. meet cheryl tan then went to laykoon house & bainian. Eat dinner there then take cab home & make brother sleep first. cheryl follow me. (: brother sleep alr, went back to laykoon house again. Sit there watch tv. Around 11plus, went home. tired. Happy valentines day! ;D

Yesterday, went noelle house to bainian first. Then after that bring baobao go ahma house then went yewtee meet alas. Go his house & bainian with NOELLE NG! ;D reach there, watch tv then play majong. Scared dao laaa~ cause all of them very pro in majong. -.- play awhile then jy, ian they all came. Then vanessa came too. lols. then play finish, took cab back to panjang & fetch bao. luckily never lose in majong ;DD first time sia! haha. then bring bao go home & make him sleep while noelle went to cousin house. Called cheryl tan, but she never answer my call. wanted to ask her follow me. then meet noelle at cck then went to alas house again. reach there, more & more ppl at there -.- then went to jy house & slack. they play majong while we watch tv. damn tired. slack till today morning then went home. tired la.

Left jy house, we went to eat breakfast at yt. Damn funny lahh. Alas went crazy. then suddenly no mood. -.- maybe too tired le ba. then kok drive me & noelle home. thanks ah. Reach home, brother wake up liao. Can't bother about him cause not really feeling well, went to wash face & went to sleep. around 12plus wake up. went ahma house to eat. slack awhile then went home. bath, then went meet weixin. after that, went JBP fetch anngee. then go JP buy food for steamboat. Then now i'm at her house ;D damn freaking long never see her liao. miss her la ;DD && meeting my boyf later ;DD

i'm sick & tired of everything. Goodbye.

2010-01-21T16:20:00.002+08:00

Hello people!

Currently now at bishan ite using comp (: damn shiok sia. Now talking to xinyi on ebuddy! Damn miss her & julian. Anyway, thanks xinyi! :D hope you can go poly ya? (: Meet up soon! Nowadays keep meeting noelle for dinner. Then meet wilson/alas to slack. Omg, i'm damn fucking miss CHERYL TAN XUELI NOW! Better meet up tmr!! Now doing work in powerpoint slide. Sian. I'm not even doing anything. Just blogging, facebook & ebuddy. & this project must be hand in by next week & also must talk about the slides infront of the class. -.- damn what lah. Later meeting noelle for dinner. & maybe wilson. Friday, going work first then meet cheryl tan for dinner. Sat, going to help ganma to do sintua thingy then after that go out with friend. Sunday, going cousin house to do work. Phew, plan everything for this week liao. Anyway, i thought of changing part time course to full time course. I don't know should i? Still thinking. Anyway, i saw ARINA just now! she change alot sia! damn miss her.

fuck off & don't play with me. Even though i still have feeling for you but what else i can do now? All of them ask me to forget you. If you're serious with me, you will text me but you dint.

2010-01-16T23:59:00.001+08:00

Today went to health promotion board to see doctor with noelle. And wth, it's close alr. wasted my time to go over there -.- Then went to chinatown & eat with noelle. walk walk, then take mrt to vivo. walk around, then anngee text, take bus to imm. walk around there & i buy shirt from cotton on again(: haha! then take mrt to westmall to meet alas & his friends. watch daybreakers. the show is nice. after that, went to nearby coffeeshop, sit down and talk. Damn freaking funny lahh. all of us laugh like hell. Then they send me to bustop. Thanks!(: then went anngee house, ton at her house today.

2010-01-12T19:57:00.004+08:00

I'm free to update my blog.(:

On last Saturday, meet my dearest girl to bugis. Accompany her to buy school bags & etc. And yeah, we ate YAMI YOGURT again! It's damn delicious.(: then find a place to sit down cause tired. & i saw vera. Damn freaking long never see her alr. After that, went to parklane and find alas & his friend. They were playing pool. Sit awhile & cheryl got to go meet her bf. Jy & me accompany her to walk out of the shopping centre. & i was alone sitting down & seeing them play pool. Even though they got talk to me, but i still find it boring without cheryl! After that, weixin came & fetch me while alas they all took bus home. Went to newton food centre and eat. Around 2plus, reach home. Wash up then went to sleep. Tiredd.

Sunday, rotting at home until evening. Meet cheryl and noelle for dinner. After that, went plaza to walk walk & cheryl want to dye hair! So went my house slack. And i dye my hair too. (: After that, send cheryl to take cab home. Then went home. ~~I love today! Because me & him chatted on the phone till 5plus in the morning! Even though i'm really very tired & feel like sleeping but after talking to him, i'm not tired & sleepy anymore.(~~: Yesterday, woke up at 10plus in the morning. Damn damn tired. Cause i only slept for 5hours plus? Then bring brother to school and then went to bangkit for breakfast with mother. Don't have appetite and dint really eat. after that, went back home to watch tv. Then alas come find me. Cheer up lahh, daddy! :) after that, talk awhile then he went home. Meet noelle for dinner. Then went to meet cheryl at lot one & accompany her for dinner. after that, went yewtee slack. around 10plus went home. Thanks vivien for accompany me to text during midnight! Thanks alot!

Today, woke up quite early. Can't even sleep. Kept thinking & thinking. Then bring brother to school & went to bangkit for breakfast. Don't have appetite and dint really eat anything. After that, went to meet vivien & tina at bp! I DAMN MISS TINA! accompany tina to eat then went back to my house as they want to see my baby! (: Then they went off at around 4plus. Watch tv & after that went cousin house. Everything just changed between a night.

2010-01-08T13:58:00.004+08:00

Heyyyyyyyy Yoooooo! (:

Yay!~ My interview were successful so does vivien! ((((: Me & her will be going the same company to work and as well as same school to study. happy like hell lah.(:

Wednesday, cheryl dint went school. Meet her then went to bugis, suntec city, ikea, her house & lot one. Suppose to meet alas but then never. Sorry. Then train back to panjang, meet noelle. Then went back home, watch tv, dye hair(: then weixin & alas came for house. Talk talk talk until 12plus, weixin send alas home. After that, on the way home, i saw moon! It's like so near to us! And it's damn freaking nice(: reach home, wash up then went to sleep alr.(:
Yesterday, dint go out. Stay at home and pack my whole room. Is damn freaking messy. And i thrown away alot of shirt, shorts and dress. I'm going to buy more new shirt when i get my pay! Throw away all the secondary worksheets but not the textbook. Pack until damn tired. Then went to bath. Fetch brother. Meet noelle for dinner. Then went home and watch tv.
Today, bring brother to school then went to anngee house. Now i'm alone at her house. Cause all of them went out. Waiting for anngee to come back(: Kays, i'll post some pictures taken on cousin wedding(:
Me And My Best Cousin! (:
Me And My Best Cousin!(:

Veron, Caisan Jie, Anngee, Me & Felix kor(:

Ganma, Caisan Jie, Me & Anngee!

Us with alicia!(:

Thanks for giving me time. I hope i'll think very carefully and won't regret. Even though you suggested that we dont text each other that often but i also hope your feelings toward me will still remain the same.

2010-01-05T20:15:00.002+08:00

Finally 2009 had past(((((((: All those bad memories i won't remember(: I damn miss school but i miss dance the most! Miss the dance teachers, friends & the instructor too. I'll go back & visit them ;D Of cause i damn miss all the friends in chestnut drive! Hope to see them soon. ;DD

Currently slacking at home for a few days as i ended my job last week. Now i'm waiting for the pay to come so i can buy lappy & also sign internet :D Woohoo~ like that i'll confirm stay at home liao. Yesterday went out with vivien! (: Meet her at pending then went back to cdss because i want to take voucher (: Reach school, faster walk to the office & collect. Then me & vivien faster walk to the bustop & take bus to jurong cause we had facial appointment ! we were late for half an hour? haha. Wah, the facial damn freaking pain. & i did cried. Haha. Mine is about 2hrs plus sia! So damn freaking long then make my head pain sia! Then went to bangkit walk walk then went back my house for dinner. after that, meet emily at plaza with vivien! vivien & emily went home while i went to meet noelle ng! haha. accompany her to eat dinner then went home. Today, bring bao go school then went to bangkit eat breakfast. after that, went home. rot at home. Then went to anngee house with noelle :D

Omg, i'm damn shocking that you asked me. I really don't know how to react. Boy, give me more time? if not, i really got nothing else to say already.

2009-12-28T22:51:00.003+08:00

It's had been quite some times since i update my blog. Busy with work.
I will just summarise what i did in the past few days..

- working, working & working.
- celebrate christmas eve with cheryl, alas & alas's friend.
- Happy birthday to cheryl on 16dec.(: went to eat steamboat.
- sick for 3 days.
- went plaza sing with sheena.

& i can't think of anymore le. haha. today suppose to went work but then lazy. then meet vivien at bugis & went to walk walk. we went to billy bombers & eat. damn funny lah. the people there is very friendly. haha. (: then went to walk walk & meet cheryl at bugis street.(: after that, went to city hall & meet alas. took mrt to clementi with vivien while alas & cheryl went home. Then take bus to the company which me & vivien going interview tmr. The environment there is damn suck. shouldn't have choosen that company. sighs. then took bus to anngee house. awhile more, i going home liao.

Alright, done blogging.

2009-12-14T20:11:00.004+08:00

This few days very tired. When working time, feel like sleeping. Damn tired. Somemore this job is damn slack. Got nothing to do. Sometimes, i'm sick of this job. Hais.. But nevermind, 13 more days, the job finish le.

12dec2009
Went to caisan jiejie wedding(: never sleep last night, ton at anngee house. then around 6plus in the morning, went to prepare & off to weilin kor house. Haha, felix korkor kena disturb by the bride sister. Damn funny. Then stay at there until 3plus, took cab back to anngee house. Went to prepare for the dinner. After that, went there with anngee/veron first. The wedding dinner end at around 11plus. Walk to far east plaza with brother to took cab home. but no cab! then saw anngee. Then ask jack to come fetch us home. Thanks ah. Damn tired. Reach home, bath then went to sleep. & Caisan jiejie was very pretty that night! hope she & felix korkor can be forever together! & of course, i want niece (((: & pictures will update soon.:D

13dec2009
damn tired. but no choice have to go work. Reach there, damn freaking tired. slack. chit chat. walk around. & michelle went to work at raffles city! (: Then have a chat with sheena. Thanks sheena for consoling me & listen to whatever i say. & yeah, i've to be strong no matter what. I don't care what others going to say. & also thanks xinyi/julian & michelle. After that, totally no mood & also damn tired. went meet mother at plaza to buy toys for brother&sister. After that, went to buy kfc for dinner then went home. Oh ya! happy birthday, veron! :D

Today!
went to work. damn tired. luckily tmr off. going out with cheryl tmr to help her celebrate her brithday. as usual, slack. chit chat. walk around. after work, meet anngee/noelle then go anngee house. maybe going wega later to accompany anngee do paper work.

alright, done blogging. quite tired now.

2009-12-12T02:22:00.005+08:00

Me, Sheena, Kelly Auntie, Xinyi & Julian. Lack of Michelle.

Cheryl & me. :D

Cheryl, Me & Vivien :D

Me & vivien :D

Me, Vivien & cheryl :D

Tina & Me :D

Veron, Da gugu, Me, Anngee & Marcia :D

Anngee, Me & Noelle! My 16th birthday, 2009!

Suddenly feel like posting some of my old pictures. Haha. I don't know why i still can't sleep. Somemore later around 6am must wake up le. so tiring lahh. Was chatting with Xinyi & Nick on msn just now. They very funny uh. Haha.

After 18dec, our life will be different. Some people will go sec5, some people will go ite. 4years in chestnut drive had given me alot of memories with all my friends. I miss crazycraps! Miss the time when we go recess together. Chit chat alot of stuffs. But after n lvl, everything change. It's seem like the five of us seldom go out together. Well, hope we'll remain friends forever(: I miss my class, the teachers, the canteen foods & last but not least, i damn miss dance! Miss the people in dance. Miss those days when we are training very hard for the SYF in 2009! At least our efforts never wasted. Haha. I really hope everything will be the same forever, but i doubt so. Of cause i'll cherish the last time on next friday with all my friends! because it'll be the time we can step in chestnut drive sec school together le. Well, good luck to all my friends! Hope we can pass our n lvl ba! (:

Alright, i'm just being random. haha. kay, i'm bored now.

2009-12-11T21:52:00.002+08:00

I'm bored.

This whole week had been working, working & working. Damn tired. Whole day had been standing. Leg damn pain but no choice. Sighs. Nevermind. Same thing, i'll just summarise.

- Meet cheryl at bugis for dinner & walk walk too.
- Cheryl, noelle & alas came for my house for dinner.
- Tina came to find me yesterday! (:
- Meet noelle for dinner.

I guess that all i do for this week ba? haha. Today went work again. Late a few mintues again. Tsk. Then chit chat with julian. Slack all the way. Then went to lunch with sheena & julian. Then after work, meet noelle & anngee at bugis street to buy dress. Walk walk around, take bus back to anngee house. In bus, a fucking old man keep staring at me. Argh, don't feel like saying it. -.-

Alright, only left with 7 more days to N level results le! I'm freaking scared. I kept dream that i fail my n level. Sighs. well, what had done, alr done. Now i only can pray hard.

Well, thanks for those who keep accompany me to chit chat during work time, especially julian, sheena & xinyi. Of cause taoqin they all too(: And michelle too. Miss her la. I prefer to work with her than working with jimmy. The face so dao. unfriendly de. Sian. Hope michelle can transfer back to raffles and work with me which it's impossible. Haha. but nevermind. I'll visit her when i'm free.

& oh ya, caisan jiejie's wedding is tmr. Congrate. Confirm will take lots of pictures :D & today have to sleep early cause tmr around 6.30am have to wake up le ley. haha!

Kay, done blogging. Next week then blog. Takecare friends (:

2009-11-29T21:05:00.003+08:00

I'm free to update my blog already.
Alright, just summarise what i did the past few days.

- working, working and working.
- Cheryl & vivien came find me & wait for me after work(:
- went orchard with cheryl & vivien.
- slack.
- eat dinner with noelle.

Today, work quite slack. Talking with friends. after work, meet anngee & weixin then go amk eat sushi. haha. very nice to eat & eat dao damn full. haha. next time when i off work then go eat sushi with noelle. haha. confirm will eat dao HAPPILY! :D haha. then now at anngee house slack awhile jiu go home le. yay, tmr off! (: confirm sleep dao late late then maybe watch movie with anngee & noelle(: ok, i'm tired. bye.

~~why i still think of you? Sighs.~~

2009-11-23T23:48:00.002+08:00

Cousin for life.(: No matter what, we'll side our own family members.

Today quite boring & tired day for me. Morning, meet noelle for breakfast. Then she accompany me to take bus. Then went to work. Slack , talk with friends. Around 2plus, noelle came for inteview. haha. accompany her awhile then continue to do my duty. after that, went to eat lunch. Noelle pei me(: thanks ah. then noelle went off. Continue my duty. Boring. walk here walk there. Then have a chat with xinyi.(: haha. chat for very long. after that, she went home then left me, julian & barbie auntie. Boring again. talk talk lor. haha. then off work le, went to mrt meet noelle then went imm meet anngee, veron & dick. haha. yay! anngee come back le(: went there walk walk. then went back to her house. sleeping over at her house today(: & she buy thing for me at hongkong. thanks biaojie! Now at her house, chatting. k la, abit tired le. Dont feel like typing le. bye.

2009-11-22T21:45:00.002+08:00

THIS POST IS ABOUT YOU! YOU ARE DAMN FREAKING WHAT! AND I'M NOT THE ONE WHO CONTACT HIM FIRST OKAY? IS HE CALL ME FIRST! GET THE FUCKING FACT RIGHT BEFORE YOU SAY ABOUT ME! YOU SAY I PLAYGIRL? SO? I DON'T GIVE A DAMN. YOU WANT TO SAY ABOUT ME, GO AHEAD. I'VE TOLERATE YOU FOR VERY LONG. I KNOW YOU ARE CONCERN AND CARE ABOUT ME. BUT YOU'RE OVER CONCERN & OVER REACTING TOWARDS ME. I GO OUT WITH GUYS, IS MY PROBLEM. MUST I TELL YOU EVERYTHING? YOU'RE NOT MY STEAD, YOU'RE JUST MY FRIEND OKAY? YESTERDAY YOU HAVE HURT ME AND MAKE ME CRY. NOW MY TURN. AFTER THIS, I'LL PRETEND NOTHING HAPPEN BETWEEN US. BYE!

Alright, from ytd until now, don't have a good sleep. cause of stupid stuff-.- This few days keep working. Thanks to noelle who waited & accompany me until i off work. Thanks!:D & Thanks to alas & cheryl accompany me to eat lunch & waited for me too! Thanks ah!(: Now, i'm at anngee house updating my blog. I guess i won't be updating so often cause working. & yeah, make new friends when working(: They are friendly(: alright, gtg. & yay!~ anngee coming back today! (:

2009-11-15T01:28:00.002+08:00

My sister(:

The four girls(:

2009-11-14T21:15:00.003+08:00

Hello !

Now got one siao char bo sitting next to me and keep ask me to update my blog. haha. guess who is it ba.(: Hmm. Yesterday went to national museum the cafe there and work as waitress with tina. It's damn tiring. The people there is friendly & very funny. Haha. Then tina was damn high cause of something. Haha. After work, went to plaza sing & eat. Walk walk, then saw shuai ge. Haha. It's damn handsome la!~ Then tina was damn crazy over that shuai ge. haha. But she still can't move on. Nevermind tinatan, try your best to move on ba. If you want to find anyone to talk with, find us(: confirm be there for you(: haha. then went back to panjang & meet noelle. slack. talk alot of stuffs until midnight then went home and sleep. Today wake up quite early. then went to meet noelle & eat breakfast at bangkit. Saw junting(: then went to walk walk. went home bath & meet noelle to ganma house to slack and make cookies. haha. i wasn't doing anything. is noelle & junting making all the cookies(: kind of lazy. haha. after went to find anngee. slack & ton at her house(: tmr going celebrate ahma birthday(: